Hi all -
I'm still here. It's been a baaaaaaaaaaad day. We just got back from the airport. There are no flights off this island, not even to buy, nor Maui either...Actually, there were three seats from Maui to Sacramento, and I'm not going to say...let's just say it would've maxed out my credit card
. It sucks. I guess, its because its a holiday weekend here, and the last week of summer...whatever. The next soonest flight I could've gotten was the 25th, but the funeral is on Mon. so we're going to miss it. My mom totally flipped out in the airport - screamed "you heartless b*tch" and jumped out of the car, and ran off. Whatever. I know everybody deals with stuff in their own way, but I really just cannot deal with her right now.
I'm ok though, I told my sisters I would come to pack up the house in a few weeks, and honestly, I think I'd rather do it that way. I don't really want to deal with my aunt and her kids, who never even visited my grandparents, but are now rushing in and taking over everything. So, I'll go by myself, and say goodbye alone. That's how I think my grandma would've wanted it. Maybe that's why its working out this way. My sister said she thought she was waiting for me, and in her morphine induced haze, when she thought I was already there, she was comforted - and could go. That's really comforting to me...I guess, in the midst of all this, I can take solace int hat her last words to me were, "I'm sure glad you're here." She passed away a few hours after that.
I'm sorry to unload this on you all. I'm sorta having a hard time here. My family is being their usual lame-o selfs, and the person whose shoulder I've always had to cry on is gone...