Any ideas on what's holding me up?

[chiro_kristin]

Other than the baby not being ready yet, I mean...

As in my personal emotional issues. I'm working on journaling, meditating, and of course praying on this, and I just wanted to see if anyone had any ideas of things that could possibly be impeding me "letting go."

I can't understand why I have felt so ready to go for so many weeks now when the baby isn't ready. I'm not tired of being pregnant at all. I just have felt that it is time for the baby and me to move into a different stage of our relationship (i.e. birth). Since I consider myself to be very in tune with my body (comes with the job), I'm really frustrated with myself!

DH is really supportive, not pushing, not saying the wrong things, etc. I've all but quit work so that I can just relax and get rest. Poor DH puts up well with my tears too.

ETA: I really don't feel any anxiety about labor at all, so that's not it.

Any thoughts besides "be a good girl and wait?" I just want to explore all avenues and make sure it isn't me getting in the way.

Many TIA!

[Kerrie]

If you figure it out let me know! I'm sorry I can't help more - I'm in the same position as you. Wondering and waiting. The only reason that I can come up w/for me is that I'm holding out for the homebirth that I knew I'd never have but is a possibility if this baby is not born before the BC closes on the 31st. But then she'd be a Sept. baby and I never imagined that!

[Jaimep]

I don't know either, but I am WAY more impatient and anxious to see this little guy. I think its because I already have a child, so I know how great it is. Plus we are having a boy this time and DH is extra excited about it. We are also near our family this time and my sister is coming, my mom ect.... and they couldn't come last time cause we were in a different state. So I chalk all my impatience and stuff up to all that.

I went to get a massage and reflexology points last night. I figured if it didn't help, at least I could get all relaxed and say I tried. When she was doing my pressure points, he would KICK and WIGGLE. It was kind of cool. So I know she hit the right place. HOwever, he is still in there.

[streetkitty]

Originally Posted by Jaimep

I don't know either, but I am WAY more impatient and anxious to see this little guy. I think its because I already have a child, so I know how great it is. Plus we are having a boy this time and DH is extra excited about it.

Definitely more impatient this time. DD was a week early and I don't remember feeling so impatient. I think because I thought this baby would be born already makes me feel like I'm not as in tune to my baby or body. The timing, I thought, was perfect for this weekend (I really thought this baby would be born on the full moon like his sister). My mom and sister are both coming from N. Cal (my sister won't be able to come after next Sunday), all of my freelance projects are out there with clients awaiting feedback, DH has a project that he can work on from home for a few weeks, I am finally feeling pretty good after a week that was literally a test of my sanity...it all seemed so perfect...

Had a lot of pressure, cramping, contractions last night- up from 1am and was just about to sit in the rocking chair for awhile at 2:30am when DD woke up and had a 102 fever. Since she has had 3 febrile seizures in the past 8 months- we are not too fond of fever over here. All of a sudden, I didn't want to go into labor...She seems OK today but it's a wait and see kinf of thing. I know I would be uncomfortable with my MIL watching my DD today- if she had a seizure my MIL would freak and I don't need to be thinking about that while in labor.

Maybe this baby does know when the "right" time is and I just need to let go completely and enjoy the ride...

It's so hard though!

[Goldiemom]

Even being in tune with your body, if you are stressing over this because things aren't happening, that could be stopping her from coming out. I am finding this with my own little one. When I am able to get totally out of my head, and sleep and relax things happen, when I am up and about and the stresses of life are there to smack me in the face she runs for higher ground so to speak. I hope that your little one comes soon Kristin. I am so sorry that it is getting to the frustrating feeling like you aren't really accomplishing anything with all the wonderful things that I am sure you are doing to prepare yourself for this little one. I am sending labor vibes your way sweetie. Hang in there it really won't be much longer now.

[LeeshaLynn]

I think my baby is holding out until at least the 23rd so she can be a Virgo....

[heldt123]

My earlier comments were lame...I like what nancy said!

[~Megan~]

I don't know if it will work or not but I'm sure a nice long 1.5-2 hour massage will help you prepare for birth.

[Seana]

I was due two days ago. MIL wanted to induce yesterday!

[nabigus]

You're doing exactly what you need to do! The absolutely last thing you need to do is beat yourself up in any way about holding things up--it's such a vicious cycle of "maybe I'm doing something wrong" and then "maybe I'm worrying too much about doing something wrong". I got a little weepy in the last couple days, wondering exactly these things.

Love the idea of a massage, though. Hey, it certainly can't hurt, right?