thank you from the bottom of my heart
it means the world to me to find so much support here as MDC has been a huge outlet for me since becoming a mother. I have very little family nearby and live in a pretty rural area. we do have my FIL/BIL and a few close friends so I do have a small support network in place. i'm not sure at all what I will do, it's so hard to even think right now. but am hoping to sort through things int he coming weeks. right now I'm feeling quite lost and out of touch. being PP doesn't help much and I feel like I can't enjoy my new daughter like I should be. DH memorial service was yesterday and today he was cremated

: I also went to the site today where he died in our car which was so difficult. we still have no answers and it looks like it was a health related problem and not a car accident, though we have no clue as to what. I never thought I'd be a widow at the age of 31

please hug your loved ones tight and don't take a minue for granted.
eta- here is an article about my DH death
http://www.nogalesinternational.com/...news/news1.txt
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