I am so terribly sorry -- please do everything you can to rally all your support network around you, and to feel the love coming at you from the MDC crowd...take care of yourself and your children, and know your dh is with you in them...
I am so sorry about the loss of your husband. I am SO SORRY!!!
My first husband died when Emma was not quite 5 months old. It was sudden and horrible and I still have not completely dealt with it. I don't think you even can really "deal with it." It's been nearly 4 years now (09/09/01).
I remarried 2 years ago and our son is 11 months old. I know that you probably can't imagine it, but life truly does go on.
Please let me know if you'd like to chat. I'm praying for you.
(applejuice - How are you doing two years into it?)
I am over in the September due date club but wanted to say I am so sorry and wish there was something we could do. This is one of those times when an emoticon on a message board just doesn't convey what I want it to.