Hey ladies-
Thought I'd jump in this conversation... not because I'm a mama, but because I'm a little bit lonely...
By way of introduction:
My name is Niccole, and I live on the North Shore of Massachusetts. I am not outwardly shy, but have few friends around here, and am always worried about looking foolish when I try something new. So, I don't really like doing things, like joining groups, alone. It took me ages to get up the courage to post on these boards, because I worried about sounding silly. My best friend lives about an hour away, and is busy with her own buisness, my one college friend is dealing with her own lonliness in Kentucky, (a bit far to travel). I don't really feel the need for daily updates and letter exchanges with either of these women, since once we call or get together, its like we were never apart, and I know that if I really need them, distance won't keep them away. However. I've lived here going on five years, and have no real girl friends in the area. The women I hang out with are the wives and girlfriends of my boyfriend's buddies (who he's known since highschool). I enjoy palling around with the guys, fit in really well with them, but can't get chummy with the girls. We no longer share the same interests (not that we ever really did) I've mostly lost touch with them as they've gotten married and started having babies. That's not because I dislike babies... but I don't really share the same views on child rearing. They mostly think that my ideas on Natural Parenting are quaint at best, and that I'll wise up once I have my own. Not quite the support group I'll be looking for, come my turn.
I think its interesting that I found this thread today, since I came into my house so very uhappy, needing the friends I haven't been able to make. I came home tonight fresh from a visit to my new primary care doctor, facing a confirmed diagnosis of Poly Cystic Ovarian Syndrome, and an overwhelming schedual of blood work, and ultrasounds, and nutritionists and endocrinologists, and medication changes... and my dear, sweet boyfriend who feels he has to fix everything, asked me "what's your plan". I couldn't answer, because how do you plan for any of that?? Who makes the contingincy plan for the unexplained blood pressure spike that panics your doctor, or the sheer terror that all the things your other doctors have been telling you not to worry about really ARE a problem, or the devistating possablility that you won't be able to have those beautiful, well adjusted babies that you so desperately want??? I didn't. And all I wanted to do was talk to my mom, but she was out with her friends and I had to leave a message...
Well. Wasn't planning that rant... thnk you for joining my pity party. I promise its over
Niccole
FrowningFrog- I don't live very far from you if you wanted a walking partner... we could compare book lists. Let me know when you are feeling better, and up for a stroll around the lake.
: I'm not at all outgoing and have always been extremely shy. I make myself mad sometimes because of it.
