beautiful gift

[PrincessCass]

My MIL passed away this morning at 1:50Am. She was with us at home with DH and I and FIL holding her hand and saying goodbye. I can't say that I am not sad but I don't think sad is the word to describe the feeling. Whatching and feeling her pass from this world to the next was very calming to me for some reason. Hearing her last breaths escape her body and feeling her sweet release was such a beautiful gift. I know she is no longer in pain nor is she suffering. Peace is the best way I can describe it. I never realized hearing my Mom take her last breaths would be so much like hearing my childrens first breaths. I know this may sound horrific and insensitive to some but I am really at peace with her passing and feel so blessed to have been there for her in her last days. It was emotionally and physically the hardest thing I have ever had to do and yet I cannot complain I would not have had anyone else take my place.

Thank you everyone for your thoughts, prayers, and support through this incredible time. I am still not ready to welcome my little one but I am feeling closer to it. We have decided to add MIL's name to our new baby's so she will officially be Emily Grace Loreen Morrison and I am excited to see if she gets her Grandmothers eyes (just like Daddies).

All I can now say is how amazing Life is and how precious every moment from begining to end is. I will forever be changed by this and amazingly thats OK with me. Today my husband told me that I am his greatest hero and I had to laugh because I guess the only person I have to thank for that is my MIL she helped to make me the faithful compassionate woman I am today. Funny how things come full circle.

[NowOrNever]

Oh, I'm glad your MIL isn't suffering anymore and that you are at peace. My Mom died last year, and I felt very much like you did.

Be gentle with yourself and your dh for the first year. It gets much easier after that. And talk about it! That will help with the healing.

Peace to you all and you're all in my thoughts.

[Galatea]

I am glad that she went peacefully.

[trijosie-mama]

I think what you wrote was beautiful. I'm very sorry for your loss.

[Autumn Breeze]

I'm sorry for your loss. But I'm happy she's at peace.

[mom2threenurslings]

How beautiful! It's wonderful that you are so much at peace with this and that you are honoring you Mom through your daughter's name. Our thoughts and prayers are with your family in this time of transition.

[Goldiemom]

How wonderful that she is at peace now. I am sure she will be a special angel to watch over Emily. Please take care and know that you are in our thoughts and prayers.

[ZeldasMom]

Originally Posted by PrincessCass

All I can now say is how amazing Life is and how precious every moment from begining to end is. I will forever be changed by this and amazingly thats OK with me. Today my husband told me that I am his greatest hero and I had to laugh because I guess the only person I have to thank for that is my MIL she helped to make me the faithful compassionate woman I am today. Funny how things come full circle.

I am so sorry, Cass. It sounds like, if there is such a thing, she had a good death, with those who loved her close by and supporting her. It's what I would want for myself. I am with your DH--sounds like your MIL was so lucky to have you in her life.

[curlyfry]

Cass, what a wonderful additude you have. I am sorry about the passing of your MIL, but am happy that you are at peace with it. It's so much better than suffering.

Your new little one has a wonderful, strong woman for a mother.

[danaan]

Blessings, Princess Cass. The portals are open for you and your family. May the beauty and power continue to flow.

[sarahloughmiller]

I am glad she was able to go so peacfully and that you are doing so well with it. It sounds like you had a really special relationship with her.