I am going to have another ultrasound!
I had an u/s last week, at 6.5 weeks and everything looked ok, but that was just the technician saying it, dr hadn't seen it yet. There was a gestational sac, a yolk sac, and a tiny blip, which was the start of the beating heart. It was too small to measure though and I think that's why they want to repeat, although not totally sure.
I called them last week to get the 'official results' after dr saw them, but of course they couldn't even find them and dr hadn't seen them yet anyway. So I decided not to bother with the stress of it anymore and to just accept the fact that things looked good and totally enjoy this pregnancy without any worrying (ok, with just a tiny bit of worrying LOL)
I had been ignoring the whole dr's office and had been very reassured after seeing midwife, and figured I would just take things as they came, not worry about what could be.
Today, the dr's office called. She said the dr now looked at it. It was too early to see whether it was a viable pregnancy, so they want to repeat the u/s next week. What the heck??? So why would they do it so early that they couldn't see whether it was viable? And how can you prove pregnancy is viable anyway, I think you can say no visible problems, but things still can go wrong. Geez!
I have a new u/s set up for next Monday, Dec 30th. It will be great to see a nice bean with a beating heart. Miscarriage rates really go down after seeing hb at 8wo. But of course, on the other hand, I am all worried about 'what if we don't see a beating heart???? What if something else is wrong?' I am trying to just stay optimistic, but have started stressing already anyway.
I notice that the ob office mostly makes me stress out, while my midwife usually helps me to calm down. Interesting difference.
I was so convinced that this pregnancy is a keeper, but somehow having an u/s makes me doubt myself again. I also think that my trust in my body has been really shaken up by the recurrent miscarriages I have been having before this pregnancy. I was getting past that though, with the great hcg nrs, them doubling, and the passing of all the miscarriage dates. But all back to worrying again just because of a stupid repeat u/s!
I briefly considered declining the u/s, but couldn't really do that either. It will be nice to have the reassurance that things can work out. But I could have done without the stress anticipating the ultrasound!
Karen, 8 weeks today!!!!