Anyone else feel gross?

[samsmamma]

I just feel gross. I'm huge. I have a weird hurty thing at my bikini line, I think from my underpants being a little too tight. When I look at my thighs at night, all I see is gross hugeness. And I stink. My feet stink. My crotch stinks. I feel like everyone can smell me all the time. I remember being stinky with Sam, but I feel so much more so now. My hair looks like crap and is just wild, especially since it got humid again. i think I have 3 chins. I'm just not seeing the radiant pregnant woman that everyone else sees!

Ironically, everyone keeps telling me how small I am now and how I'm carrying so well, so I know some of it really must be in my head. Or else they are just being nice because I really look as gross as I think I do!

Then again, those people don't see my cottage cheese thighs.

Is anyone else feeling gross? is this just my own personal grossness issue?

I think I need to order some underpants in extra large...yikes...

[s_kristina]

I totally hear you on the stink thing. I am about to start taking 2 or 3 showers every day! By the end of the day I can't lay with my arms over my head with out gagging. I don't even want to think about the other smells right now. I was looking t my ace in the mirror Monday and thinking either I gained 5 lbs in water weight over the weekend or my weight is all shifting to my face, either way it looks bad! I am seriously thinking of doing something about my hair this weekend in hopes it would make me feel better. My big problem is I haven't colored my hair since before I got pg. The smell of the chemicals was just too much for me for so long that I never got around to it. Now we are still staying in a hotel and I don't think coloring it here would be a good idea. All the gray hairs are really starting to get to me though. I keep looking at them and thinking there is no way I should look this old! Things are just blah on the looks front at the moment for me.

[MrsMoe]

I feel the same way. I am jsut not one of those women who adores being pregnant either. And sometimes I retain so much fluid I loose the arches in my feet.

[BensMom]

Yes, I stink. I sweat. I go through at least 2 pairs of underwear a day, they get so wet and gross after a couple of hours. I hate it. Most of the time i go commando, but then I still feel sweaty and yucky anyway. Can't win.

The BO is bad, if I am going to be around people other than DH in the evening, I have to shower again.

My hair is up in a ponytail every day, otherwise it bugs the heck out of me.

No, I don't think I am glowing!

[DreamsInDigital]

Oh thank god it's not just me.

[zjande]

Yay Kristina, I'm so glad I'm not the only one! People tell me how small I seem & how cute I am or whatever. I try really, really hard to focus on positive things (like how magical & short a time pregnancy is, etc), remind myself that this is very temporary, & lean on my perfectly wonderful DP for support when I need it because I really fell into feeling like the grossest most unhappy whale during my last pregnancy. I was also in a kind of crappy relationship at the time which I know added to it. I totally didn't want to end up feeling that way again this pregnancy. So far, I'm not as miserable as last time, but still am feeling NOT CUTE lemme tell ya.

I hate feeling fat. I hate seeing the cellulitey lumps on my thighs. I hate being so slow & uncoordinated. I HATE that I can't reach my crotch to shave anymore. I was getting in contortionist positions to get it done but I've recently given up. I can't sit flat on my tailbone due to the mad shooting pains I will get, so shaving my legs doesn't happen very often anymore either (seeings how I can't do that standing up anymore EITHER). I HATE that I drip pee AFTER peeing every time. Wearing a pad drives me insane so I try to just catch the pee drips, but often don't & end up smelling like PEE in my underpants. Sometimes my thighs get burny & rashy from the F*c*ing PEE on them. I hate that my butt is 4 miles wide. I hate that my tailbone & back have given me so much pain that I'm WAY out of shape & move like a slooow whale woman in bed. I like feeling sexy, I do not feel sexy anymore. I feel pretty gross most of the time.

And I also feel dumb even for complaining because I know it's all in my own head, my DP has never uttered a single unloving, unsupportive word to me. He's overjoyed with this pregnancy & when he calls me his waddly penguin girlfriend, he hugs me & tells me how much he loves his waddly penguin girlfriend immediately after. :LOL

So anyway, I feel gross, I'm happy to hear that others are feeling the same, it feels SOooo good to just vent about it, & now I'm going to go back to trying my best to focus on the positive things & pretend that those people that tell me a look cute are not lying. Hahaha :LOL

[samsmamma]

Just breathing a sigh of relief that I posted this at all this AM, because knowing I'm not alone, especially in the pee stink and other stinks and cottage cheese thighs makes me feel a lot better too!

And there's Britney today talking about how she's going to be a hot mama or whatever she said, and I'm all just - EW I can not even think about being hot right now!

Well, at least we can commiserate here!!!

[flapjack]

I got so sweaty walking back from school yesterday, I thought my waters were leaking.

[crsta33]

Pregnancy and summer really don't go well together. I feel like a huge and very smelly, beached marine mammal.

DH asked a while back if we were going to put plastic down on the floor for our room. I told him I didn't want to be slipping around like a walrus. He said, since when do walruses give birth on plastic? Exactly. This walrus isn't going to. :LOL

This reminds me, I must shave my legs before the midwife gets here today.

Christa

[*Amy*]

I hate feeling fat. I hate seeing the cellulitey lumps on my thighs. I hate being so slow & uncoordinated. I HATE that I can't reach my crotch to shave anymore.

Word.

And you know, I always feel slightly sacreligious or something if I complain. But seriously, I am tired of being slow and fat and out of breath.

[deathbygodiva]

I'm showering twice a day and using tons of deodorant. If I don't, I make myself sick :LOL

We're nearing the end..... I said to dh last night, "Tell me it's almost over and that I'm going to make it." He said, "Same length of time as all the others". Duh... could someone just write them a script so I don't have to hear dumb comments???

Oh yeah, did I mention I'm getting grumpier? :LOL

[AmyGirl28]

I completely concur with everything listed above. Anyone else peeing their pants when they sneeze. What a joy! I agree that it is hard as hell to get down to shave my legs. Except for the doctor appointments and the nights that I actually feel in the mood enough for sex, then I have to shave. I am so glad that it is getting cooler outside that I can just wear long pants now. My hair looks like crap too. I am going to get a hair cut this weekend.

[Soos71]

You are so not alone. I'd been feeling great, with hardly any of the usual pg complaints, until a few weeks ago when the edema started. At first it was a novelty to look at my big, fat feet and ankles that seemed to have been transplanted from someone else's body onto my legs. Then I went on a beach vacation with my family (mom, dad, grandma, uncle, older sister, her estranged husband (don't ask) and her foster kid, but not my brother and his nasty wife, thank God), and besides the fact that it was a completely insane thing to do considering how incredibly dysfunctional my family is, my mom kept inviting people over who couldn't stop staring at me in my bathing suit. This led me to believe I looked huge. Also, there were my sister's lovely comments about how now, finally *I'm* the one with the big ass. Very nice.

We returned after Labor Day to wonderful, cooler weather, which made me so happy. Then this week, (as Erica can vouch), NYC's been incredibly humid and muggy. My feet and "kankles" now resemble something floating above the crowds at the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade. People have been telling me my face looks "fuller" (which I translate to "fat"), my hips hurt so much they wake me up at night, and I can't walk three feet without getting short of breath and sweaty as hell. Just had a checkup with the midwife, and all is well with baby and me, thank goodness. But does that keep me from griping? Clearly not.

This whole week I've felt as if someone's been kicking me around in my sleep, and sex is but a distant memory (poor DH). I keep thinking that when I feel peppier, I'll be able to do all the stuff I haven't done yet in prep for the baby. Just wondering when that'll happen...

Thanks for the opportunity to vent. I hope everyone feels better (i.e., less sweaty, smelly, huge, etc.) soon--even before the babies arrive.

[cjbeach]

Me me me. Add to that hemorrhoids that will not shrink and making me uncomfortable as heck and a leaky bladder and here I am!!! Oh and can I add to that the fear that my lower belly is hanging out. I feel like a guy with a beer gut because everything keeps falling below my belly and I'm paranoid that my belly is peaking out below my shirts.

[kel]

I *know* my belly is peeking out beneath my shirts - nothing will completely cover it now.

I think the thing that is making me feel worst right now is my moods - I have horrible mood swings now; really bad short-tempered moods, and waves of depression that come and go every few days. I actually got in a huge fight with "d"h today about laundry and ended up throwing some playmobile at him.

And yes, I've got the physical complaints, too. I'm not ready yet to have this baby, but I can't wait to start exercising again and get the hemorrhoids under control and hopefully see some of these horrible looking veins fade away.

[zjande]

Hey I really LIKE the pregnant belly peeking out below the shirt look!! :LOL I think it's super cute.

[SoggyGranolaMomma]

I'm SO glad you posted this!! I was just thinking about this stuff today!

I feel so nasty. Again, I was at a bday party though tonight and people told me "you're all baby" "you look so great" "your face is beautiful".

Meanwhile, I know I have gained WAY too much weight, I have cottage cheese on my thighs and a double chin. I usually have such a pretty "kitty" and I can barely even SEE it in the mirror right now. My butt is big and yes, I SMELL!!!

I wear pads every day because of the discharge and I always seem to be leaking urine. :

I am so thankful for the life inside of me, but I really REALLY am ready for this to be over. I get the "you're so tiny!" comments, but I feel like a whale. I can't get out of my own way, I make horrific noises when I bend over and I'm tired of not being able to breathe!! Grumble Grumble. It's almost over!!

[SoggyGranolaMomma]

Oh and the mental stuff is the worst. I'm usually really level and totally logical. I don't rule by emotion.

When I'm pregnant, especially late term, all bets are OFF!! I become a typical clingy, psycho, girl, which I hate!! :

The worst part about it is that I *know* it's all hormonal, and I hate being out of control of my emotions, more than I hate being "girly".

So I'll cry and whine about something at the same time as explaining that I know I'm irrational and nuts but have no say in how I respond to things.

[2tolove]

Thank Goodness You posted about this! I loved being prego the 1st time I thought I was cute even BUT this time I am SO OVER IT!!!!!
I think I am a little of everyone abive & some !
The mood swings are making me feel insane! I pretty much walk around the house all day telling dh that " I am really aggitated, but I don't know why" . He is sweet enough to just smile & say " I can only guess" ( He's a quick learner & skips the annoying comments :LOL .)

I have now begun telling people when I am due down to the 1/2 week ... 6.5 weeks Like that makes it better .....

[BensMom]

Today my son made me cry. He was being ornery already and I knew he needed to eat in order to balance his mood out. I was working on making him some rice and once that was done, I made him some broccoli, which he usually loves. I cut it up, buttered and spiced it just how he likes it and put it on the table for him, to eat while the rice cooled. He loked right at me and dumped the broccoli all over the floor. And said he wanted Zoe (the dog) to eat it. I just cried and cried that he did that to the meal I made for him. I am not usually so emotional. I laid quite the guilt trip on my poor 4yo son! (Dh was at the grocery store so he missed all the fun.)

Yes, the emotional roller coaster is loads of fun! But I still think the sweating and the stinking is worse! And here in GA, its still pushing into the 90's at the peak of the day. I want fall! It's cooling off at night, but that doesn't help me much.