I realize this forum is for grief of a different nature, but I felt the need to post here, and I ask respectfully for patience from you all who have sustanined a greater loss than this.
I was in an abusive marriage for 12 years, which I ended 3 years ago.
A year and seven months ago, I met the most wonderful man, and we began sharing our life together. My life is far from drama free, however, and from the start, there was a lot of turmoil..my ex, my son had a hard time accepting this man, and it took a long time for him to gain my son's trust.
We also had our share of financial issues..and he moved here to be with me, while his sons remained an hour and a half away. His mother never supported our relationship, and always thought he was making the wrong choice.
In February, on my birthday this past year, he asked me to marry him. I was so very happy, and felt i had finally found peace.
This past Thursday evening, he broke it off and moved out of our home.
He said he loved me, was still in love with me, which made it more difficult. But that he could not handle all the drama, life on a rollercoaster, he had nthing to show for his 39 years, and could not support himself, let alone anyone else. He said he needed to find out why he made so many unthought out choices, and mistakes, and needed to get his life on course. When asked if this meant he just needed "space" for a while, he said he felt he had to go at this with the mindset that it is over. I asked how he could do this when the love was there, and he said he would push that away, because he had to now think with his head, and not with his heart anymore.
I am so broken. I want to find some faith, but it is not there. I can't sleep. I have not eaten anything substantial since Thursday. I am trying to be strong for my children, but I feel like I am drowning, and I do not know what to do.
I was in an abusive marriage for 12 years, which I ended 3 years ago.
A year and seven months ago, I met the most wonderful man, and we began sharing our life together. My life is far from drama free, however, and from the start, there was a lot of turmoil..my ex, my son had a hard time accepting this man, and it took a long time for him to gain my son's trust.
We also had our share of financial issues..and he moved here to be with me, while his sons remained an hour and a half away. His mother never supported our relationship, and always thought he was making the wrong choice.
In February, on my birthday this past year, he asked me to marry him. I was so very happy, and felt i had finally found peace.
This past Thursday evening, he broke it off and moved out of our home.
He said he loved me, was still in love with me, which made it more difficult. But that he could not handle all the drama, life on a rollercoaster, he had nthing to show for his 39 years, and could not support himself, let alone anyone else. He said he needed to find out why he made so many unthought out choices, and mistakes, and needed to get his life on course. When asked if this meant he just needed "space" for a while, he said he felt he had to go at this with the mindset that it is over. I asked how he could do this when the love was there, and he said he would push that away, because he had to now think with his head, and not with his heart anymore.
I am so broken. I want to find some faith, but it is not there. I can't sleep. I have not eaten anything substantial since Thursday. I am trying to be strong for my children, but I feel like I am drowning, and I do not know what to do.
