Hi to everyone, I hope you had good holidays.
I was thinking alot about this thread over the few days of holidays.
I learned a lesson that was helpful to me and wanted to share it with you.
I had to pay for my registration for my health seminar in Cancun. After the 1st it was going up $50. Well that wouldn't be a big deal if I were American, but I am Canadian, so with the exchange that is 80.00 or something...so instead of coming up with 700.00 for registration I would have to come up with almost 800.00 after the 1st...
Anxiety set in (that poverty mentality).
I called the cc on the 26th and to my surprise there was over 700.00 on it...when there should have only been 617.00 and 85.00 was coming out for our car insurance so really I only had 532.00 for my registration...
We got a 75.00 rebate cheque in the mail so I was under the impression that we had to come up with 100.00...and I wasn't seeing any resources for that to happen.
Upon hearing that there was actually 700.00 on the cc, I realized two things
1) I am suppose to go to Cancun (I have been having my doubts)
2) There is a greater power working in my life...that does not have a poverity mentaliy guiding the way (wow, I'm pretty happy about that!)
It was exciting to be able to pay for the reg. and have money to cover all our other expensences but what about the next three weeks..how will we get through those as we have just spent every cent we have. (There I am seeing myself returning ds gifts for refunds...
...ah yes that poverty mentality again)
At just the right moment we were given 100.00 in grocery certificates!!
I have been learning lessons this past year since we moved that are SLOWLY shaping my life.
I am slowly realizing that when you are responsible, even as hard as it might be, you are richly rewarded. This is very difficult to do when you have a mentalilty of poverty, as you live from one cent to the next...For instance there have been many months when I want to cancel our life insurance as we could really use the 65.00 for food or something I consider at the time more important...but a little voice always stops me and says "what will you do if something happens?"...and within a few days or hours, a gift will be given to us or we will get an unexpected surprise that will carry us through. I am always so thankful that I am moving forward and trying to move away from that kind of thinking.
When I allow myself to go into that poverity mentality, I allow negative energy to fill my days and thoughts.
There could be enough food for three more days, yet I am only focusing on the emptiness of my fridge and cupboards.
So instead of being able to appreciate all the goodness of each day which consists little of material things, I am consumed with anxiety, over a situation I am not in control of and for the moment can not change.
Today, I am broke, but do not feel poor or without. I feel like I have been given just enough till my next gift.
I was reading my new favorite book "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and this line really jumped out at me
"The fact is, of course, that negativity does not work. Instead of dissolving an undesirable one, it keeps it in place."
I suppose this just a lot of rambling...and I just wanted to share another great gift and some of my thoughts going into the new year.
I am excited about this thread and promise I won't ramble so much next post...