I first want to say that I really think it is a crime to get a pregnant woman all worked up especially if it is because you are incompetent....
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I had my appointment with my backup MD today (for the first time because it's taken months to get in with her). Everything was easy going and fine until she measured me. And being 36 weeks and 1 day my uterus measured at 31 weeks... and she said she was being as generous with the measuring tape as she could be. So then she started taking a more in depth history and I told her how tired I've been feeling and about the flight out to my parents, and how "juicy" I've been (you'll understand if you read that thread), and how the past couple of days I've been overly hot and sweaty blah blah blah blah blah. And she told me that based on the measurement being so off, (she kept asking me if my dates were correct) she was really concerned about PROM. So then we talked about what tests needed to be done and about if they were positive and how I'd need to be induced. Anything I said seemed to confirm her suspicion that I would probably need to be induced and have the baby much sooner than expected. Which I sort of got excited about but then PROM... infections... hospitals... unfamiliar doctors and staff... I started thinking about all the reasons why I choose homebirth... BECAUSE I WANT TO STAY OUT OF THE HOSPITAL!!!
I left the office in kind of a daze, called dh and told him then called my midwife and told her that the dr. wanted me to see her asap to confirm her findings before I got sent to the hospital for more testing. Well long story short my MW was out of town so I had to go see her fill in. And she did all but one of the tests they would have done on me in the hospital (sterile spec, nitrozene, FERN etc)... and everything was normal. Apparently the MD had been measuring my uterus to the top of the baby and not the top of the uterus. And since the baby is so low and already engaged pretty far down in my pelvis that could really throw off someone who... I don't know how to say it... didn't really know what they were feeling for???
So in all, between my visit with the midwife and the doctor I was out for 8 1/2 hours, alone with my toddler screaming at the top of his lungs because he was bored etc etc.
I feel physically exhausted and a mess emotionally because I still have so much stuff to do before the baby gets here, and I want the baby to get here but I'm just not ready emotionally yet either... I'm just not there yet.
but I will be 
And yes, I know that baby's come when they are least expected.
Today just really threw me off kilter.
if you have read this far...
thanks for reading my rant!
:I had my appointment with my backup MD today (for the first time because it's taken months to get in with her). Everything was easy going and fine until she measured me. And being 36 weeks and 1 day my uterus measured at 31 weeks... and she said she was being as generous with the measuring tape as she could be. So then she started taking a more in depth history and I told her how tired I've been feeling and about the flight out to my parents, and how "juicy" I've been (you'll understand if you read that thread), and how the past couple of days I've been overly hot and sweaty blah blah blah blah blah. And she told me that based on the measurement being so off, (she kept asking me if my dates were correct) she was really concerned about PROM. So then we talked about what tests needed to be done and about if they were positive and how I'd need to be induced. Anything I said seemed to confirm her suspicion that I would probably need to be induced and have the baby much sooner than expected. Which I sort of got excited about but then PROM... infections... hospitals... unfamiliar doctors and staff... I started thinking about all the reasons why I choose homebirth... BECAUSE I WANT TO STAY OUT OF THE HOSPITAL!!!
I left the office in kind of a daze, called dh and told him then called my midwife and told her that the dr. wanted me to see her asap to confirm her findings before I got sent to the hospital for more testing. Well long story short my MW was out of town so I had to go see her fill in. And she did all but one of the tests they would have done on me in the hospital (sterile spec, nitrozene, FERN etc)... and everything was normal. Apparently the MD had been measuring my uterus to the top of the baby and not the top of the uterus. And since the baby is so low and already engaged pretty far down in my pelvis that could really throw off someone who... I don't know how to say it... didn't really know what they were feeling for???
So in all, between my visit with the midwife and the doctor I was out for 8 1/2 hours, alone with my toddler screaming at the top of his lungs because he was bored etc etc.
I feel physically exhausted and a mess emotionally because I still have so much stuff to do before the baby gets here, and I want the baby to get here but I'm just not ready emotionally yet either... I'm just not there yet.
but I will be And yes, I know that baby's come when they are least expected.
Today just really threw me off kilter.

if you have read this far...
thanks for reading my rant!










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