vaginally, head down, epidural, demerol, the works deep episiotomy and forceps

I've seen pictures of her holding me right after I was born and she looks bloated from the IV, white as a ghost, eyes barely open, and looks as if it's taking all the energy she has left just to smile and hold me

we both had 20 hour labors, the difference is I gave birth at home- in the pics of me and my son right after birth I look like I just went for a long run- sweaty and hair all messed up- but other than that my color is great, my eyes are full of energy and I don't look fatigued at all.
To me just comparing our after birth pics is the biggest reminder to me that homebirth was such a good choice!

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