I'm now 12 days past... (according to my latest possible due date by u/s of the 9/20).
Everything has been fine up until last night. I saw my mw and she was a little concerned about the highs and lows of baby's heart rate.
She asked us to do a fetal kick count last night, and we did. She was satisfied with the count, but she's coming to our house sometime this morning to check baby's heart again.
I was pretty discouraged at my progress, too. I was 1cm dilated and baby at 0 station on 9/21. I'm still only about 1cm. 80% effaced, though...
There are so many factors that could be contributing to me not going into labor. My niece passed away at the end of August and I haven't had a chance to really grieve--the first couple of weeks afterward I lost a pound and decided not to think about it for a while, dh has been working a lot and extremely tired when he has been home. Usually he is such a big help around the house and with dd... I haven't had much time to myself for reflection.
I can't really believe I'm afraid. I have planned things exactly as I want them to be this time. I'm happy with our decisions surrounding this birth and there is a lot of family support.
If baby isn't doing well, I really need to get things moving. I've been trying some things. I have had two massages with acupressure, rubbed castor oil on my belly, Labor Prep tincture with blue cohosh, Labor Startup tincture with pennyroyal and black cohosh, sex, etc. I haven't drank any castor oil yet. My mw may have me do that this morning. We didn't have any luck trying to strip my membranes yesterday. My cervix wasn't forward enough & only 1cm dilated.. Maybe it'll work today.