Back from u/s, not good news

[mommybritt]

Hi all,
Thanks again for all your support. It looks as if I'm losing this baby. I should be 6 weeks today but when we went in for the u/s, there was nothing there, just an empty sac. No yolk sac, no heartbeat, no nothing. The tech kept saying that it might be just too early but I know my dates are right and I know that I would have to have conceived and implanted really, really, stretching the bounds of reality late for this pregnancy to be viable. From what I know, that would be quite unlikely. I went for a BHCG right afterwards and should have the results this afternoon. My biggest fear is that it will be ambiguous - I don't want to go through the holidays like this. I knew as soon as the first u/s picture came up on the screen that something was wrong. I mean, I could see the sac but there was absolutely nothing in it.

I feel really numb right now. I don't know what to think or what to feel. It's like since we haven't had confirmation of a m/c I don't want to start to grieve just in case but I know what I saw is not good and the dr said it was not promising. I've had a m/c before and I've been through years of IF treatment so I consider myself pretty knowledgable about this stuff and I really feel that I'm losing the baby. My dh wants me to stay positive but I think I'm just being realistic.

Thanks again for all the support.

Britt

[guestmama9924]

I am so sorry for your fear right now. NO matter what happens, I pray you peace.
I will remember you in my thoughts today

[Jude's Mama]

You're in my prayers!


Michelle

[*~*SewHappyNow*~*]

How disapointing to not have a definite answer. You just don't know how to feel about those things when you don't know anything for sure. You're in my thoughts

[MysticHealerMom]

I'm so sorry, Sweetie.

Being realistic isn't necessarily negative. Being blindly positive could make the hurt worse, denial isn't realistic.

It does put a cloud on the season...

Please keep your spirits up, anyway, best not to dwell on the negative, even if you aren't being realistic.

BFW had a section about Worrying. (It's ok) I reconcile what you said about being realistic with worrying. If you don't have the book and think it would help, I could quote it a little better...

[Eman'smom]

Words can't even express how sorry I am to hear this. I lost our baby, two weeks ago today, at 5.5 weeks. My dh kept trying to keep my spirts up until we knew for sure, but I already knew. This is such a hard thing to go through and having it happen at this time of year makes it especially hard.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[BusyMommy]

HUGS to you. What a terrible thing to wait and see. Please know you and your baby are in my prayers. I am so sorry you have to go through this experience. I know how much it hurts and I know how much the waiting must be driving you insane.

Do you believe in Spirit Babies? I truly believe that Baby (and God) choose the best time to come.

[MysticHealerMom]

not my thread.......

[birdwomyn]

Milkfacemama,

I am so sorry to hear your news. You and your family are in my thoughts, especially these next few days as you face the "cheer" of the season with the reality of grief.

kathy

[merpk]

Sending light & strength your way ...

- Amy

[Rebekah]

I'm soooooo sorry. I'm sending you a big ((((hug)))). I wish there was something I could say or do to help relieve some of your suffering. Know that you are in my thoughts today and that I'm sending you thoughts of peace.

[mommybritt]

Still not conclusive

Arghh, this drama is really playing itself out. My HCG levels were fine - over 13,000 but since we have nothing to compare it too, it really means nothing. We now have to wait until Friday, have another blood test and then compare to todays. I'm still 99% sure that I'm going to lose this baby but I feel that I just can't give up completely just in case. Worst of all, we're supposed to be going to visit my inlaws out of town on Friday. I really dislike my MIL and don't want to be at her place when we find out what's going on And, of course, tomorrow is Christmas and I'm just not in the mood. I think I'm just going to have to try and put this out of my mind (yeah, right) until Friday. Wow, I really would have been happier with a definitive answer today. Now we drag it out until Friday. I'm presuming that my HCG levels are just on their way down as normal HCG levels just don't jibe with the u/s.
Thank you all again I'm so glad this board is here

[Luckymomma]

Whoa. I had a similar situation to yours. Except I found out I was pregnant after I started to miscarry. We did the hcg levels and they went up. Unfortunately, the baby was already gone, but the placenta was still growing which gave the elevated reading. To top it all off, you still feel completely pregnant, ms and all. I eventually had a d&c because it seemed the miscarriage just wasn't going to end on its own. It really is a nightmare, and I'm so sorry you're going through it. I pray there was some mistake and everything will be alright(like you're not, eh?). Whatever happens, be kind to yourself. Be selfish if you need to. This is such a deeply painful thing for you right now, you don't need to explain to anyone. But sometimes it is possible to put things on the backburner of your mind for awhile. I think it's a gift women have. Deal with the grief when it's more convenient, in doses you can function with. I'm so sorry. I hope you find some peace soon.

[grandmasgirl]

I'm so sorry. Please be gentle with yourself. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

[Annais]

(((MilkfaceMama)))

[flminivanmama]

It could be a molar pregnancy - they give very high hcg levels... IIRC it's when a sperm implants an egg that has no dna or something like that....

yup that's what it is http://www.obgyn.net/women/articles/molarpreg_dah.htm

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[Aurora]

I am so sorry.

[phoebekate]

I am so sorry you are going through this uncertainty my thoughts and prayers are with you.

[tnrsmom]

Just wanted to let you know I am thinking about you.

[Chi-Chi Mama]

hope you're ok!!