kelly . . .are you out there?

[Kelly71]

hey kelly,
how are you? haven't seen you around lately and hoping you're okay. hope 2003 is a better year for you than 2002.

warmly,
kelly (the other one)

[kelly]

Yeah, I'm here. I've been thinking about this place a lot, but it has been too hard for me emotionally to come here. My 10th attempt at TTC failed. It has been a full year since I started trying. I have had two very early m/c (my first and fourth IUIs), and still no baby.

My RE has scheduled me for laparoscopy at the end of the month. Assuming my insurance will pay their 80%, I think I am going to go for it. I have been so tempted to give up completely, because it hurts so much every time I realize that I am not pg. I thought then that maybe I'd just take some time off, but I am soon to be 34 and my eggs aren't getting any younger either. Plus, a friend of mine mentioned that I should have the laparoscopy done now regardless, because at least if the Dr finds a problem that is *not* fixable then I can pursue another route, like adoption.

Sigh.

Then, I heard through the grapevine that an old acquaintance of mine (works for my ex) just found out she's pg, and she is so psychologically screwed up that she has no business having children! Just makes me wonder what is so wrong with me that I don't deserve that same joy.

At Christmas I saw a cousin of mine (who I rarely see) whose baby girl was just 3 weeks old. I spent the entire evening holding that baby as she slept in my arms.

Thanks for wondering about me. I'm hanging in there. Take care, and feel free to pm me any time.

Kelly

[MamaSoleil]

((((Kelly))))

I see, and feel, how discouraged you are. Please keep your optimism...it took us 1.5 yrs, but it finally happened. You will have your babe!!!

Much fertility and harmony to you,

Mamasoleil

[karenpl]

{{{ Kelly }}}
So sorry to hear about yet another failed attempt, that sucks big time!!!!!

But glad you checked back in, I had been wondering about you too. I hope the lap will give you some answers and I also hope you will be seeing a STICKY BFP in the very near future!!!!!!!!

Here's to a wonderful and very fertile 2003 for you!!!

[coolermama]

Hey Kelly,

First time I am back since my very early m/c Christmas Day.

I, too, am about to undergo more tests and see what we can do to make this work. Hang in there Kiddo! We can be desparate together for a while.

Love and Blessing and Warm Thoughts, Anne!

[Aurora]

Kelly

I am so sorry. I truely hope you are pregnant soon. You are in my prayers.