sounds like a cheesy title, and i guess it is, but this pregnancy, and my idiot OB, has really taught me how important (obvious, yes, but still important) it is for women to be allowed to trust their own bodies, and to have a choice as to what kind of person is with them during the birth of their children.
I guess i didn't think about it too much with my other two babies; i was too caught up with the mechanics of it all, but now that i'm older and wiser i guess, and i've had the experience of having a caregiver that's intervention-happy, it's really obvious to me how wrong it is that this kind of person is my "best" and in reality only choice, aside from birthing alone, which i'm not comfortable with (you have no idea how much i envy you mamas who have done it/are doing it).
Something really needs to be done--it's obvious to me that the medical industry is getting worse instead of better, and though there are some places in this country that are finally seeing a huge movement in natural birth options, my home is NOT one of them, and shows no signs of going that way anytime soon. i could band together with like-minded women (there are a few), and yell and scream and demand better until something changes, but maybe it would be more proactive to be the change myself--get the education and experience required, and become a midwife. That way, i may not be involved in a revolution, but i COULD be there for mamas like myself that want something better, or at least something that much closer to "right."
Realistically, it would be years before i could even dream such a thing (and for that reason, i'm not sharing my desires with anyone else, even my husband). I just don't have the money for school, the knowledge even of what classes and degrees i'd need, or the desire to devote so much time away from my own babies, but maybe someday things would work out, my husband could work more predicatable hours, i could get a part-time job to pay tuition, etc. I just don't see it happening anytime soon, but maybe it will, because i've had like this epiphany--for the first time since childhood, i actually thought to myself this morning, at 4am "this is really what i want to be when i grow up" and maybe it will never happen, and maybe i'm not capable, but it's what i really want. Kind of conceited for me to think i could make a difference in people's lives, but i could at least try!
Maybe this baby just gave me the kick in the butt i need to do something with myself; shown me my next step after mommyhood
Anyone else have a major revelation recently?
I guess i didn't think about it too much with my other two babies; i was too caught up with the mechanics of it all, but now that i'm older and wiser i guess, and i've had the experience of having a caregiver that's intervention-happy, it's really obvious to me how wrong it is that this kind of person is my "best" and in reality only choice, aside from birthing alone, which i'm not comfortable with (you have no idea how much i envy you mamas who have done it/are doing it).
Something really needs to be done--it's obvious to me that the medical industry is getting worse instead of better, and though there are some places in this country that are finally seeing a huge movement in natural birth options, my home is NOT one of them, and shows no signs of going that way anytime soon. i could band together with like-minded women (there are a few), and yell and scream and demand better until something changes, but maybe it would be more proactive to be the change myself--get the education and experience required, and become a midwife. That way, i may not be involved in a revolution, but i COULD be there for mamas like myself that want something better, or at least something that much closer to "right."
Realistically, it would be years before i could even dream such a thing (and for that reason, i'm not sharing my desires with anyone else, even my husband). I just don't have the money for school, the knowledge even of what classes and degrees i'd need, or the desire to devote so much time away from my own babies, but maybe someday things would work out, my husband could work more predicatable hours, i could get a part-time job to pay tuition, etc. I just don't see it happening anytime soon, but maybe it will, because i've had like this epiphany--for the first time since childhood, i actually thought to myself this morning, at 4am "this is really what i want to be when i grow up" and maybe it will never happen, and maybe i'm not capable, but it's what i really want. Kind of conceited for me to think i could make a difference in people's lives, but i could at least try!
Maybe this baby just gave me the kick in the butt i need to do something with myself; shown me my next step after mommyhood
Anyone else have a major revelation recently?
I've been an LPN for 10 yrs, so it makes the most since to go the CNM route. I'm worried that being a nurse mw will limit my practice, but I think I can reach more women who might not know their options as well as more naturally minded mamas. It's going to take forever to get my advanced degree, but I'm patient.
