I have had major drama in my life since Sunday... Can I get it off my chest???
We were supposed to go out of town from Sunday to Wednesady (Z, J, DH and I), Crystal was supposed to stay here with my sister Lupe so she could go to school. Well I should have known the trip was doomed on Sunday afternoon when we were on the road and my sister called to report that Crystal had fallen down the stairs at her apartment!
(Luckily she was OK, and it was an accident... but still...) Then I forgot to tell L to attach a note to C's backpack with her new cell phone number on it so the school could get a hold of her if need be... But I thought "Oh, it's only one day, I'll make sure she sends it tomorrow" and all day I had a feeling in the back of my mind that I should call the school and give them the number JUST IN CASE. And, you guessed it, they had been trying to get a hold of all of us all day because Crystal was sick. The principal of the school even drove over to my house!!! They ended up calling the freakin' paramedics who took Crystal to the hospital because she was too sick to stay at school and no one could get a hold of my sister... So, someone finally got a hold of me on my cell and I rushed back home as soon as I heard that all of this was going on. THEN I find out that the school called Child Protective Services on me because they feel that my sister is irresponsible and doesn't take good enough care of Crystal when we are out of town, and they were concerned that they couldn't get a hold of anyone in an "emergency". And, according to them, Crystal was sent to school filthy, with no glasses on, oxygen on the wrong liter flow, smelling of urine, with boogers on her face and generally just a mess. My sister's story is that she woke up 15 minutes before the bus got here and she had to get Crystal ready in a rush, and didn't realize that she was too sick to go to school. So now I have a flippin' CPS investigation on my foster care file forever!!!
I am so confused, hurt, sad, mad, angry, embarrassed, and just plain anxious about everything. I have a heavy feeling in my head and I just don't know which emotion to let go of first to feel better. I haven't sat down and talked with my sister yet, mostly because I don't even know what to say or where to start. So, please pray for me and my family. We need prayers that CPS won't do any further investigating, that the school doesn't hold a grudge, that my licensing agency won't be mad at me forever, that my anxiety will go away, and that I don't kill my sister today when I am forced to sit with her at the Thanksgiving table.
I know I shouldn't have left town without someone for the school to call in an emergency (my mom, dad, SIL and I were all out of town, and they had tried to get a hold of all of us...), so I did 'fess up to what *I* did irresponsibley. But it was only ONE day they were left without a contact number, and it just happened to be THE day there was a problem (of course). And it just happened to be on the day when Lupe woke up late and rushed Crystal out of the house. But that still doesn't excuse the fact that she sent her to school filthy, and was rude to the school and hospital staff when she finally got her butt to the hospital. Anyway... You get the idea. I am thoroughly pissed and wish that I could go back in time. CPS will be coming back at 8am on Tuesday to see Zachary, because I guess they have to see all the kids in the household before the investigation is closed. He fell down while we were out of town and his lip is red so I only hope they don't think I'm freakin' abusing him...
I made stuffed mushrooms, a tray of summer sausage and smoked cheeses and crackers, and a corn/black bean thingy for the Thanksgiving meal today. We're eating at my mom's. I bought three bottles of wine, so hopefully they can offer me some escape from reality...
I hope you all have a great day.