For the first time in twenty years

[milk_maker]

The anniversary of my mother's suicide has passed without me going through a depression or dealing with thoughts of suicide. Perhaps it's the fact that I have a baby now and I know I could never leave him like she left me...or perhaps it's the fact that I've finally forgiven her.

I still get sad when I think of her death 20 years ago and I get sadder still when I realize what she's missed out on. Then I strengthen my resolve to be a better mother and to never leave my child. Twenty years....

[Wugmama]

[Anuska]

I guess thats what they call "healing"......I'm so sorry for what you've been through. 20 years is a long time, but I for one am glad to know that that "day" eventually will come.

You are a very strong person to have survived your mothers suicide and forgiven her.....Yes, your resolve will make you a wonderful mother.

[lisamarie]

Thank you for coming and sharing your story and strength. My first dh died by suicide and even though my ds and I have been through alot of counseling and attended a family grief and loss support group, I always wonder how he will feel, once he is older and especially a parent. Thank you for speaking from the heart .

Thinking of you~

Lisa

[BumbleBena]

[milk_maker]

Thanks for the hugs and support.

[janebug]

mama, thinking of you and the healing circle of life. You are so strong.

[shalena]

[rachelle-a-tron]

Sending you Love Mama...

[Celtain]

Hugs to you mama.

My dad has been gone for 23 years. I still don't know if I have forgiven him. But I'm not angry anymore, just sad. Sad for what I lost and what my kids lost and what HE lost.

Hugs mama