Had a change of heart (long)Alright, i have to start by saying that I posted a couple weeks ago i guess and got a coulpe things going about hospital vs home births. I want to say thank you to all the ladies who were good to me even though i was being weird about the way i feel about these things.
I guess it was all on page 5 of this thread. Anyways, you ladies all got me thinking. I realized that most of the issues I am concerned with would fit under the realm of moderate risk or above. so I took another look at myself and how i feel about birth when none of my concerns could be an issue. I decided to start reading and I have been reading and reading. I have aquired several books already through the TP here and have some checked out from the library as well.
I previously mentioned that I was a bit "afraid" i guess you could say of homebirth and some of the possible complications that can arrise. I also said that although I want to be a Doula right now I thought I might like to be a midwife, but would have to be a CNM as I would be most compfortable delivering in a hospital. But i dont want to go to nursing school and deal with all the bs that goes with it. I have changed my mind Isn't that just like a woman to do!
I want to do it, I want to persue a life in the field of midwifery. I think with the time my family will need to grow (till the kids are all in school at least) I could spend enough time as a Doula to really overcome the rest of my fears.
Now I dont know which route will be the one best for me to get there, oh what DH will say when I blow him away with my feelings, but I feel that if i am selective in my limits and what risks I am willing to take on I could assist women in the process of natural childbirth, at home or a birth center atmosphere.
Sorry so long, just had to share my change of heart and that between the reading I want to do to prepare for my jouney to being a Doula, and the inspiration of you other ladies, I am OK with homebirth.
Now it is my ambition to try to figure out how to find someone in my area that is planning a homebirth that may allow me to attend and learn from her.
Thanks for listening!