PPD or Not?

[bethkay]

I am a happy person. I am not depressed. My baby and I bonded immediately. He is the light of my world. It's just I get these irrational thoughts in my head. Things I would never do, but why do they pop in my head? Am I crazy? Could I have PPD but not actual be depressed? What do I do? HELP. I don't want these crazy thoughts. I got a 25 on the PPD Quiz. Anyone have any insight for me.

Thank you,
Beth

[FancyD]

I think negative or crazy thoughts are symptomatic of PPD. I also bonded w/ my baby very well, so I think that there's a variety of effects. I would still talk to a doctor, and anyone else you trust. It's good to have someone keeping an eye on you, as it can be difficult to assess your own mental state if you are/get depressed. Good luck!

[bethkay]

Thanks for the reply. It is nice to have some people I can communicate witht this about. I haven't dared to mention it. It's weird to have these thoughts pop in and out of my head. Since it's not *that bad* will it just go away on it's own?

[FancyD]

I would be very careful about this. It *might* go away, or it could get worse. You didn't mention how old your baby is... definitely have someone to talk to about it. I didn't mention it to SO, cause I knew he wouldn't get it, but my doctor was very supportive. Make sure you're taking your vitamins. I also take magnesium/calcium and evening primrose, but I am dealing w/ PPD for sure!
I think morbid thoughts are fairly common. Someone told me once that since you've just created life, your awareness of death and mortality is also heightened. Hope this has helped a little bit

[bethkay]

Thanks again for replying. My baby is almost a year old. That is why it struck me as strange to be getting symptoms now. I am not depressed or anything, but these weird thoughts just pop in my head and tell myself *in my head* to not think that. I do take viatamins. I just got some Fish Oil today. I do have magnesium and take a chewable multi vitaimin.

Anything else I need to take? I am going to start exercising too. Maybe I should take to my ob doctor about it? Is that who I would go to?

[FancyD]

Yes, I would talk to your ob. I certainly am not trying to frighten you or anything-it's just that you can't eff around w/ PPD and a dr. needs to know about it. Now, I'm in Canada and we have a very different health system, and my dr. isn't all "medicate everything away". Having someone to talk to about it is very important, even if it's just here

There's a good PPD thread here
http://www.mothering.com/discussions...d.php?t=357221
it's been pretty dead lately, but there's some great mamas there. Well, I am anyway

[bethkay]

Thanks so much for the advice and the link. It really helps to know I am not nuts or alone in this.