I'm so sorry you didn't get to welcome your daughter the way you'd planned- but so glad she's here, safe and sound and shiny and new- and absolutely gorgeous!!! Welcome to motherhood!!!
post #21 of 36
12/6/05 at 8:05am
Originally Posted by BeTheEarth
it's so hard integrating that experience with the lovliness of having your baby in front of you...
Originally Posted by *Amy*
Exactly!! It's so strange.
The crazy thing was, during the experience itself, I was telling DH and my doula "this isn't going to be something that scars me for life," but I think I may have been underestimating the impact. I just think it's amazing how your psyche can deal so well with crises in-the-moment and then allow you deal with it very slowly as you are in a place to do so. Yesterday morning was the first time I cried about it and it was almost too scary to let those feelings open up. My doula has been out of town since Wednesday - she didn't even get to see Brynn born because she wasn't allowed int he OR - and so she and I haven't even talked about it. I'm seeing her this Wednesday and I think it will be healing for me to be able to discuss it with her.
Thank you all for your love and hugs and understanding. I was thinking a lot about you Jenn, because I know there were only a small handful of us who ended up with a c-section. It's just crazy what it can do to your mind, even though like BTE said, Brynn is here and happy and healthy! Out of something so painful comes something so amazing and beautiful.