I'm planning a HBAC as well - ds was c-sec and was necessary but not something that is likely to happen again. He was face presentation with thick mec. and in distress. I was at 10cm but he kept getting worse and still has problems relating to this today
The recovery was incredibly worse than labor especially since I was put under and he was in NICU so it took awhile to bond. Just being able to talk with the homebirth midwives (even before I got preggo!) has been a healing process. I can't wait to feel my newborn on my chest at seconds old!!
I have an increadibly good feeling this time around (had a bad feeling while preg. with ds though it wasn't as bad as I imagined). Hoping the excitement of birthing will get me through the labor