On Monday late morn I had brown mucousy spotting and called my mw. She had me come in for a quick u/s to see the heartbeat and set my mind at ease but I already knew 
. This pregnany has been different from the beginning. I only had fleeting moments of nausea and I lost 30 lbs with dd pg and 40 with ds because I was so sick, and though I have been exhausted I knew in my heart this Baby wasn't coming to us yet. We just told dd on Sunday, I hadn't wanted to untell her and dh asked what I meant by that and I wasn't sure how to answer. We told her the Baby would come in the summer. Last night she asked dh if a brother or sister and when and he said he didnt know and it would still be quite a awhile. She accepted that. Sunday night I kept waking over and over with the overwhelming feeling I had lost something, or had left something behind, or even the feeling I hadn't finished something I needed to do. I told dh that morning when he asked why I was so restless and hours later was calling him to tell him of the blood.
The bleeding and cramping had gotten preogressively more intense but I think the worst of it was yesterday afternoon as I lay with a hot towel in a baggie over my stomach. The contractions, surges were coming very closely and I was feeling gushes and pushing sensations with each. My mother was here to be with my children. I baked Christmas cookies with my little ones between waves because we are the house all come to for Christmas day. When on the couch the surges got to the point I needed to breathe through them.
This morning as I lay cramping and bleeding, curled between my sleeping little ones I felt fleeting moments of peace. I am hopeful this little one will be sent back to us in time.
I am so incredibly sad. I am disappointed. I should have been 8 weeks yesterday and instead I lay there pushing forth my Babe far too soon. It sucks so bad. I have never miscarried before and when I would read posts such as these I would weep for the women and thankGod I had never had to endure that. It sucks. It sucks. It hurts and it sucks.
I am sorry to leave this group. I wish you all uneventful and blessed pregnancies and beautiful, peaceful births.
Blessings Mamas.
. This pregnany has been different from the beginning. I only had fleeting moments of nausea and I lost 30 lbs with dd pg and 40 with ds because I was so sick, and though I have been exhausted I knew in my heart this Baby wasn't coming to us yet. We just told dd on Sunday, I hadn't wanted to untell her and dh asked what I meant by that and I wasn't sure how to answer. We told her the Baby would come in the summer. Last night she asked dh if a brother or sister and when and he said he didnt know and it would still be quite a awhile. She accepted that. Sunday night I kept waking over and over with the overwhelming feeling I had lost something, or had left something behind, or even the feeling I hadn't finished something I needed to do. I told dh that morning when he asked why I was so restless and hours later was calling him to tell him of the blood.The bleeding and cramping had gotten preogressively more intense but I think the worst of it was yesterday afternoon as I lay with a hot towel in a baggie over my stomach. The contractions, surges were coming very closely and I was feeling gushes and pushing sensations with each. My mother was here to be with my children. I baked Christmas cookies with my little ones between waves because we are the house all come to for Christmas day. When on the couch the surges got to the point I needed to breathe through them.
This morning as I lay cramping and bleeding, curled between my sleeping little ones I felt fleeting moments of peace. I am hopeful this little one will be sent back to us in time.
I am so incredibly sad. I am disappointed. I should have been 8 weeks yesterday and instead I lay there pushing forth my Babe far too soon. It sucks so bad. I have never miscarried before and when I would read posts such as these I would weep for the women and thankGod I had never had to endure that. It sucks. It sucks. It hurts and it sucks.
I am sorry to leave this group. I wish you all uneventful and blessed pregnancies and beautiful, peaceful births.
Blessings Mamas.
