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post #1 of 17
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warning I can not spell and this is long now that that is out of the way...
My Dziadzi (gandpa) passed away almost 2 months ago. I considerd him my father not my grandfather. He was a extreamly strong man phlsically emotionally in every way. Maybe 5 years ago he was diagnosed with cancer lympnoma (like I said I can not spell) he did cemo radiation he drove to and from radiation. It did not stop him. Then about 3 years ago he had to have sugery on his one leg they had to extend his vein because there was not enough blood flow. That still did not bring him down 2 weeks later he was putting in a set of stairs at a friends house, making a desk or dresser. Last year he had to have liver surgery they took over half his liver (that is the only organ that regrows itself I had to say that cause it is so interesting)because of cancer he also had cemo and radiation again he drove to and from. Still at that point he was in such High spirits he told me how happy he was and was always so so so positive on everything. Building anything and everything. Then last November he fell bringing wood out of the attic in his garage. But he said everything was fine and nothing hurt. But on that Thanksgiving he couldn't even walk. So we took him to the VA hospital and they did back surgery. After that surgery he said no more he isn't doing the s*** anymore. Then about 5 months ago he told us all he had to do prcautionary cemo that they had found cells in the water on his lungs (after the liver surgery he was getting the water on his lungs) But no to worry they would do 4 rounds of cemo over 4 months and that would be it. The first round you would think he had nothing He was his same old self. The second he got a stomach infection they told us if we hadn't brought him in when we did we would have lost him. He was a little crabby but he was tired and he hates when he is tired.

The third round we lost him he got a blood infection and phenomena we took him to the VA on november 1st he had not enough blood pressure to sustain life yet he did for 7days. They said he only had an hour if that to live but agian he did for 7 days. When I got to the VA he was talking to me like nothing was happening he ask the doctor how he was doing. Then told me and my mother he was going to fight and he did! I went up there everyday not wanting to leave but I had my Ds to care for. I would tell him what Joey did and what I did that day how much I loved him and how proud I was to be his grandaughter. The one day when my Babci (grandma) thought he was going we all rushed there and said our goodbyes. I said pretty much everything I ever wanted him to know. He then told me to "Be a good girl" He told me that a lot I was kidda the rebel in the family. on day 5 I brought Joey ion to see him his eyes grew with pride and a huge smile came on his face he said "hey Joziu (Joey) day 6 he got worse he started to flinch and got extreamly irritated. When I saw him I went in his room and he said " hey baby what are you doing here" I told him I wanted to tell him I love him and wanted to see him. He then said " I don't want you to see me like this" That was the last time I saw him alive.
They day before his funeral we found out he had cancer in over 80% of his body and he had another form of cancer (I couldn't even guess how to spell) that he conracted in the war (WWII) It layed doomant in him for all those years up until 5 years ago, And that the last 4 years were anazing and a blessing that he lived. He had cancer in 3 organs. Why wouln't he tell anyone? Not one person knew. I am sure that he wanted to protect us but to live with that all on your own.

I was blessed with that last week and I was blessed to have him in my life. He was the most kind,genorous,loving,strong,happy,handsome man I have ever know. And if my son grows up to be half the man he was I would have done a great job as a mother.

If you read all of my post thank you (if not that is okay lol)
Karen and Baby Joe
post #2 of 17

He sounds amazing and like he loved you very very much. Thank-you for sharing this story.
post #3 of 17
Quote:
Originally Posted by TomorrowsChild
warning I can not spell and this is long now that that is out of the way...
My Dziadzi (gandpa) passed away almost 2 months ago. I considerd him my father not my grandfather. He was a extreamly strong man phlsically emotionally in every way. Maybe 5 years ago he was diagnosed with cancer lympnoma (like I said I can not spell) he did cemo radiation he drove to and from radiation. It did not stop him. Then about 3 years ago he had to have sugery on his one leg they had to extend his vein because there was not enough blood flow. That still did not bring him down 2 weeks later he was putting in a set of stairs at a friends house, making a desk or dresser. Last year he had to have liver surgery they took over half his liver (that is the only organ that regrows itself I had to say that cause it is so interesting)because of cancer he also had cemo and radiation again he drove to and from. Still at that point he was in such High spirits he told me how happy he was and was always so so so positive on everything. Building anything and everything. Then last November he fell bringing wood out of the attic in his garage. But he said everything was fine and nothing hurt. But on that Thanksgiving he couldn't even walk. So we took him to the VA hospital and they did back surgery. After that surgery he said no more he isn't doing the s*** anymore. Then about 5 months ago he told us all he had to do prcautionary cemo that they had found cells in the water on his lungs (after the liver surgery he was getting the water on his lungs) But no to worry they would do 4 rounds of cemo over 4 months and that would be it. The first round you would think he had nothing He was his same old self. The second he got a stomach infection they told us if we hadn't brought him in when we did we would have lost him. He was a little crabby but he was tired and he hates when he is tired.

The third round we lost him he got a blood infection and phenomena we took him to the VA on november 1st he had not enough blood pressure to sustain life yet he did for 7days. They said he only had an hour if that to live but agian he did for 7 days. When I got to the VA he was talking to me like nothing was happening he ask the doctor how he was doing. Then told me and my mother he was going to fight and he did! I went up there everyday not wanting to leave but I had my Ds to care for. I would tell him what Joey did and what I did that day how much I loved him and how proud I was to be his grandaughter. The one day when my Babci (grandma) thought he was going we all rushed there and said our goodbyes. I said pretty much everything I ever wanted him to know. He then told me to "Be a good girl" He told me that a lot I was kidda the rebel in the family. on day 5 I brought Joey ion to see him his eyes grew with pride and a huge smile came on his face he said "hey Joziu (Joey) day 6 he got worse he started to flinch and got extreamly irritated. When I saw him I went in his room and he said " hey baby what are you doing here" I told him I wanted to tell him I love him and wanted to see him. He then said " I don't want you to see me like this" That was the last time I saw him alive.
They day before his funeral we found out he had cancer in over 80% of his body and he had another form of cancer (I couldn't even guess how to spell) that he conracted in the war (WWII) It layed doomant in him for all those years up until 5 years ago, And that the last 4 years were anazing and a blessing that he lived. He had cancer in 3 organs. Why wouln't he tell anyone? Not one person knew. I am sure that he wanted to protect us but to live with that all on your own.

I was blessed with that last week and I was blessed to have him in my life. He was the most kind,genorous,loving,strong,happy,handsome man I have ever know. And if my son grows up to be half the man he was I would have done a great job as a mother.

If you read all of my post thank you (if not that is okay lol)
Karen and Baby Joe

Karen, I don't know you, but your story is so much like my own.
post #4 of 17
Because they think they are protecting you. My mom did the same thing.

I am so sorry you lost your Dziadzi.

Doreen
post #5 of 17
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Originally Posted by Wolfmeis
Karen, I don't know you, but your story is so much like my own.
Then you were also blessed to have an absolutly amazing person in your life

Thank you all for taking the time to read my story it was very diffacult to write but very theraputic. I am glad that other will know his story and how srtong he fought to stay with us for many years and in his last week. thanks so much!

Karen and Baby Joe
post #6 of 17
I am so sorry for your loss. He sounds like an amazing person. You are lucky to have had such a close relationship with your grandfather.

May I ask, are you Polish? Because when I try to pronounce the names you have for your grandparents, they sound like what I called my Polish grandparents, but we never knew how to spell them.
post #7 of 17
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Quote:
Originally Posted by coleslaw
I am so sorry for your loss. He sounds like an amazing person. You are lucky to have had such a close relationship with your grandfather.

May I ask, are you Polish? Because when I try to pronounce the names you have for your grandparents, they sound like what I called my Polish grandparents, but we never knew how to spell them.
Thank you we did have a very close relationship. I think that can make it harder because he was part of my everyday life not evey once in awhile ya know.

We are polish both sides of my family. My grandparents would not teach anyone polish we only know a little I can understand it more than speak it. I begged since i was little for them to teach me. But they were taught to keep the old ways in the past. We live in America be American .

Dziadzia is the proper spelling for grandfather (as far as I know) Dziadzi is more like grandpa or gramps

Babcia is proper grandmother and Babci is grandma or grams

My dziadzi called Joey Joziu that is joey in polish you pronouce it youshoe most names do not translate.

Thank you for reading his story
Karen and Baby Joe
post #8 of 17
i am so sorry for your loss! what a blessing your Dziadzia was to you and this planet
post #9 of 17
Yeah, because he loved you. My Gramps raised me & I felt alot of emotion as I read your story. My DH, also, lost his mom & found out after she knew she only had a few months left. She never even let on she was sick. It's love. to you!! And I agree w/ the PP, what a blessing people like this are!!
post #10 of 17
Karen, I'm so sorry for your loss.

my grandfather did a similar thing. we knew he had bladder cancer 10 years ago, and it was gone after treatment. then 2 years ago, he told my dad he was having trouble in his "male area" and didnt want to seek treatment b/c he was embarassed. He made my dad swear to secrecy about it. My dad just revealed this to us 3 weeks ago, when grandpa started his fast decline.

grandpa didnt tell anyone, not even his wife, b/c he was embarassed. He didnt think it was cancer, b/c he kept getting tested every 6 months and all cancer tests came back negative. He is dying now. He will probably pass tomorrow.

to you and what a blessing that you were there for him that last week.
post #11 of 17
TC,

I commented on your siggie in another thread of yours, then happened upon here as a mistake...

I too had a Dzidzu (diff spelling, same thing!), and he too was an amazing man, and in many ways I felt much closer to him than my father. He was also treated in the VA (was a Marine, Korean war era), but he had kidney problems.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that your siggie and this post really kinda made me feel connected to you.

Best Wishes,
Kelly
post #12 of 17
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Quote:
Originally Posted by CookieMonsterMommy
TC,

I commented on your siggie in another thread of yours, then happened upon here as a mistake...

I too had a Dzidzu (diff spelling, same thing!), and he too was an amazing man, and in many ways I felt much closer to him than my father. He was also treated in the VA (was a Marine, Korean war era), but he had kidney problems.

Anyway, just wanted to let you know that your siggie and this post really kinda made me feel connected to you.

Best Wishes,
Kelly
I saw that in my other post My Diadzi was in WWII I think I may have mentiond that already. I think that many women were much closer to their Grandfathers than their fathers or so it seems. They tend to have a tighter grip on our hearts. Dziadzi's are very special people

Karen and Baby Joe
post #13 of 17
I'm so sorry for your loss.
thet generation was really a tough bunch & I think Polish folks are some of the toughtest!
they could not appear "weak" NOR did they want to put any burden on family members. It's their way
I know - we had the whole" Be proud you are an American" thing too. I instill that in my kids also. I mean, most of these people left with what they could carry to come to a new world, not speaking the language, etc. Gosh what guts & all to better the lives of us - the future generations!

I totally loved my Polish & Slovak Grandparents also. I loved them more than my parents. What a special bunch of folks from the old country thay all are/were!

I'm glad he made such an impact on your life & could leave you with such special memories The best thing that you can do is pass along his strengths, wisdom, the pride in his past & presents heritages.
He is truly a GEM among men
post #14 of 17
It sounds like he loved you SO much he didn't want you to be sick with worry. He did an amazing, selfless thing and he sounds like an amazing man. You're so lucky to have had him. I'm so sorry for your loss! (((HUG)))
post #15 of 17
He sounds like he was a wonderful man.

He loved you and didnt want to burden you with his health problems.

on the loss of your Dziadzi.
post #16 of 17
Hugs.
post #17 of 17
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I do hope to pass on everything he tought me to my Ds (he also has my Dziadzi's name for his middle name so his name lives on) and hope he becomes a man like my Dziadzi was. This has been the longest I have ever gone with out seeing him or hearing his beautiful voice it brought peace and comfort to me. He was truely a beautiful man. thank you mama's for reading his story he is most likely happy other know his story (He LOVED attention )

Karen and Baby Joe
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