Hi all! Jack is my second baby and I find it so different this time around. The touched out isn't there this time. I don't know exactly why I'm posting this but I do want to reassure those with their first that it passes so quickly. I can't believe now how "grown up" my 3 year old is. Sometimes now when he watches Jack nurse he will curl up in my other arm and I can "see" his baby face in the big boy that looks back at me.
I remember my g'ma telling me everytime I thought I figured out where we were, baby would be sure to surprise me. He still does
Sometimes I am finding that between the two, sometimes I don't know how to split my energy. When I'm tucking Harry in and he wants more cuddles, well - I can't let the little guy cry. But I can't let my big guy cry either. I have tried all sorts of sleeping arrangements and ds1 seems to prefer his own bed most of the time though he is always welcome to crawl into ours.
I feel like I'm letting ds1 down so much of the time and tv has become too good of a friend. Then I feel like ds2 is not getting the complete devotion that ds1 got and I feel guilty for that. I'm really working on letting the guilt go as I parent daily to the best of my abilities. Some days we watch too much tv. And somedays we get lost in some kickin' art projects. I just remind myself that this time will pass quicker than I will want it to and try and revel in the amazement of the day to day.
Now, if I could just find a way to have dh appreciate the "messy" house as a sign of lived in love.
Jack was sitting up today and playing with a toy. He was sitting against the inside of the boppy. Next thing I know, he is face down and reaching for that just out of reach toy. Ds1 gets on the floor and says "like this, jackie" and scootches along on his tummy. I can't believe how in touch he is with his little brother! Ds2 has also taken to blowing raspberries at me when having his diaper changed and cracking himself up. This kid is a hoot.
I love reading about all the babies. Someone else posted that just knowing this group is there helps sometimes. On my tough days, it does help to know that this groups is here and other momma's are doing the same things with same aged babies. It is nice to not have to skirt around the issue of baby in our bed, vax, circ and feeding. Thanks for being out there and keeping the posts going.
Wishing health to the babies who are having a rough time and sleep to everyone!