PPD now? at the 9th month?

[mammafish78]

i have been lurking here for about a month. ds will be 9 months soon and i think i have PPD. i took the test on kellymom and scored >12 which means i have signs of PPD.

im so confused! i had a wonderful time with ds1 even after a horrible birth where we were separated for almost 2 days because he was taken to another hospital where he stayed in the NICU for a week.

now with ds2, i thought from the start that we did not bond well. then as time went by it got better. way better. i was happy. now here i am all puny. i am sad, and for the most part dont know why.

i have a lot of things going on. way too much to handle and it is something that is clearly out of my control.

i am very sad and extremely anxious. also very impatient. moody and angry.

i bite my lips to keep myself from doing something i dont want to do, for instance...everyone is in bed, i got mad for something i dont even know what now but i threw the remote (the first think i saw) across the room. i think i stepped on something or stumbled?? i cant even remember. anyways i bite my lips and i think i have permanant teeth marks in them.

dh doesnt have a clue i dont think. i dont want to worry him. my stomach hurts right now because i am so upset.

i read someones post here about eating a lot of chocolate..sounds good but man then id be worrying about getting fatter than i already am.

so is this ppd? or something else?

should i see my doc?

[mammafish78]

is anybody out there?

[Tummy]

to you!


I had PPD when my last son was 10 months old. At 12 months I was missdiagnosed with Bi-Polar disorder. Please be careful if you do see a doc about your feelings! The doc wanted to put me on lithiam (sp) and I refused. So glad I did. It took me going to another two doctors (just this year mind you, DS is now 7) and showing them my records from previous for the Bi-Polar diagnosis to be cleared. (long story) IMO the doc was on one of them, disease of the week kicks.

Big difference between B-P and PPD!!!!!

PPD is horrible. I feel for any mother who ever has to deal with it!

I do not really know what I can offer to you for support, but want you to have a HUGE !!!!!!


Best wishes to you dear!

[kimmie-pooh]

Originally Posted by mammafish78

so is this ppd? or something else?

should i see my doc?

It sounds like PPD to me, but I'm no doctor.

I would definetely see a specialist. Don't just see your regular doc about this as they don't specialize in this area (I'm not trying to put down family docs). See a psychologist (does not prescribe meds) or a psychiatrist (can prescribe meds if that is what you feel you need after talking to him/her).

Also, I know you don't want to worry your dh. And you may be feeling ashamed? I know I did. But it is really important that you talk to him about this. He loves you and he only wants what is best for you.

to you.

[CityGirl]

I just started Zoloft and my son is over 10 months old... so yes, it's possible. I found that the anxiety and feeling of being overwhelmed has just gotten worse--things are more overwhelming sometimes with an older, very mobile baby, especially if you're sleep deprived.

[emmasmominar]

Yes see your dr. my dd is 15 mos and I am still suffering from ppd. It sucks and it is one of the worst things ever!