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post #1 of 8
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Is this silly? I dont know where else to put this..


We have been forced to sell our house due to our dire financial situation. Its a bit of a moneypit and put ud in debt. We FINALLY found a buyer, and we close on the 11th of January. We went today to sign the lease on the apartment we will be moving to, 30 miles away. It's nice, but small. And of course, we won't have the luxuries of garage and basement. We have been anxious to move due to everything going wrong with this house since we moved in.
But lately, as preparations for the move have picked up, I have found myself getting really sad. This was our first house. This is where I was pregnant. There's the bathroom where my water broke. This is the place where our son was a baby. This is where he took his first steps. His little yellow room, so sunny, is where he likes to play. Our yard, with DS's sandbox, where you can hear eagles if you listen. All will belong to someone else in 10 days. My son won't feel at home. Our cats will be all confused.
Dh thinks I'm nuts cus of all the financial problems the house has caused. But I feel a real sense of loss in losing this house, as much trouble as its been. Its in a small town, with a real small-town feel, and I am on a first-name basis with the library staff and the people at our grocery store. We have nice neighbors.
I have to start all over again.
How can i work through feeling upset and sad about this move? I know it needs to be done, as we have tried everything else to get by. But I have this real sad spot every time i think of how we have to pack up and leave. I feel like a failure for not making it work, and I feel real grief for the passing of this period of our lives.

Can you mourn a home?

Lisa
post #2 of 8
The house is a part of many of your memories. Even if you were moving to a bigger, nicer house because you had 12(!) kids and needed more room, it would still be a little sad to leave. ((hugs)) You will always have those nice memories. Hopefully you'll have some photos of it to remind you- the same way many people keep some of their babies' clothes or wedding things, etc. But even if there was a fire, flood, theft or other loss of those items/photos, the memories are yours forever.
post #3 of 8
I understand, and it's not silly to grieve. It is the "death" of this part of your life and you have to start a new life somewhere else. Take lots of pictures and tell the house how happy you are to have lived in it. You have made lots of wonderful memories for the house to remember and it will create a good atmosphere for the next family to live there.

(Sounds flaky, I know. )
post #4 of 8
When we sold our house in town it twas a sad day. I still morn the loss of a pace that holds so many memories . I drive by every so often and talk to the girls about the memories made there.

My oldest was born in the bedroom there, my middle was born in the bathtub. My youngets was only there while she was in my tummy. I was only a couple of months preggo with her.

We sold so we could get out in the country where we wanted to be. So even thought the end was happy its still sad to look back.


On top of that my parents sold the place that had been in our family for over 100+ years. I was born there, many memories where made there and mom wanted it sold. It want even her family place. : And no we couldnt buy it, way way our of our price range. Mom wouldnt even sell us a chunk of it cause it might ruin the sale-ability of the other : irked: irked!!!!!!!

All of this happened over the past 2 years and it still brings tears to me eyes.


So all of that to say I feel all the feeling you are feeling are very valid.
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post #6 of 8
I understand... We could have out house taken at any moment and the only reason I am even upset over it is the memories I have. I hate my house- it is a getto crap hole- but my youngest was born in my bedroom- on the floor- it is a special place. I try to remember no matter what happeneds the memories dont fade- and they are mine.

I hope the next chaper is more bright!
post #7 of 8
Well, we moved for similar reasons so, yes, I definitely think you can mourn a house. When I first found out I was pg, I knew right away that I wanted to paint the nursery green with a Disney babies border. I didn't want to find out the sex so I wanted the nursery neutral. I spent sooo much time on that room. I swear - it was just so cute and perfect. I feel so badly that my dd really never got to enjoy it. I still havent' done anything to her new room and we moved last Sept! I remember walking though the house just before me moved thinking of the night I went into labor, all the sleepless nights we had after bringing dd home, etc. It doesn't help that some investor bought our home and tenants are living there.

However, not having the financial worries and the tax burden of our old home has really been a bright spot with our new home. We now live in a older 50s-era neighborhood and you know what? I really like it! It took a little time to get used to but it really is a nice place. It has been fun meeting new neighbors and discovering all the nice things this town has to offer.

Best wishes on the new home!
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Hugs~

Lisa
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