Thanks guys, this has helped...I am crying just knowing someone cares. It is hard somedays to find the strenght in myself to fill the bottomless pit that is my toddler while minding the dog, tracking the crawler and managing the house. It is a lot.
It IS a lot and frankly it's unfair that we don't often get the credit for it--the recognition, etc,--immediately. But I am always so grateful that my mom stayed home with me (of course, I am a babyboomer, so almost all moms stayed home back then)--and I often hear people (of younger generations) say that they wished their moms would have been there for them.
Believe me, you may not see recognition and rewards now, but in years to come they will come back tenfold.