My sweet baby girl,
I can not believe four years have passed since the day of your birth. I was so happy to be bringing you into the world after all your daddy and I went through to get you here. You were so beautiful, 6 pounds 9 ounces of pure love and joy. I had never known such emotion was possible until I held you in my arms. I never could have imagined that I would only be able to hold you, nurse you, cuddle with you for 2 1/2 short days.
Your daddy and I were so excited to bring you home. The docters and nurses were insistant that you were the picture of health despite my concerns about the last minute breathing difficulties and rapid onset jaundice. We couldn't wait to show you your room and introduce you to our dog Taz. Our first evening was so nice, no visitors to bother us, the three of us were able to just be a family for the first time. When you woke to nurse around 3:30 I had no idea that in less than an hour you would be gone. Dead from that stupid Hep B Vaccine I allowed you to have. I am so sorry my sweet girl, I never knew that something I had been told would help protect you could actually kill you.
To honor you we created Sierra's Bears, in your name we have given over 4,000 bears to other grieving parents when their sweet baby dies. I love that no one is afraid to say your name to me and that I am able to speak it so often. We also advocate to eveyone we can that they educate themselves on both sides of the vaccine issue before blindly consent to them as I did with you, I am so sorry that my lack of knowledge lead to your death. I love you so much and never meant to hurt you.
As we head into trial next week please give me the strength to listen as the respondants tell me I am wrong. Give me the Patience to hold myself together as they say there is no way the vaccine could have caused your death when in my heart I know it did. Please be with me, I need you.
You now have two beautiful sisters. Maia Kendall is 3 and Sage Kendall is 7 months. They both bear your middle name as a reminder to them of their big sister. Maia talks about you alot and says she misses you. At first it was hard to hear her speak of you, especially when she so bluntly adds on "My sissy Sierra is dead." but I know she is just working through her feelings in her own way.
I love you my sweet girl. I am so proud to have grown you in my body for 36 weeks, to have held you in my arms for 2 1/2 days, and to hold you in my heart for the rest of my life.
All My Love,
Your momma
I can not believe four years have passed since the day of your birth. I was so happy to be bringing you into the world after all your daddy and I went through to get you here. You were so beautiful, 6 pounds 9 ounces of pure love and joy. I had never known such emotion was possible until I held you in my arms. I never could have imagined that I would only be able to hold you, nurse you, cuddle with you for 2 1/2 short days.
Your daddy and I were so excited to bring you home. The docters and nurses were insistant that you were the picture of health despite my concerns about the last minute breathing difficulties and rapid onset jaundice. We couldn't wait to show you your room and introduce you to our dog Taz. Our first evening was so nice, no visitors to bother us, the three of us were able to just be a family for the first time. When you woke to nurse around 3:30 I had no idea that in less than an hour you would be gone. Dead from that stupid Hep B Vaccine I allowed you to have. I am so sorry my sweet girl, I never knew that something I had been told would help protect you could actually kill you.
To honor you we created Sierra's Bears, in your name we have given over 4,000 bears to other grieving parents when their sweet baby dies. I love that no one is afraid to say your name to me and that I am able to speak it so often. We also advocate to eveyone we can that they educate themselves on both sides of the vaccine issue before blindly consent to them as I did with you, I am so sorry that my lack of knowledge lead to your death. I love you so much and never meant to hurt you.
As we head into trial next week please give me the strength to listen as the respondants tell me I am wrong. Give me the Patience to hold myself together as they say there is no way the vaccine could have caused your death when in my heart I know it did. Please be with me, I need you.
You now have two beautiful sisters. Maia Kendall is 3 and Sage Kendall is 7 months. They both bear your middle name as a reminder to them of their big sister. Maia talks about you alot and says she misses you. At first it was hard to hear her speak of you, especially when she so bluntly adds on "My sissy Sierra is dead." but I know she is just working through her feelings in her own way.
I love you my sweet girl. I am so proud to have grown you in my body for 36 weeks, to have held you in my arms for 2 1/2 days, and to hold you in my heart for the rest of my life.
All My Love,
Your momma
Lighting a candle in honor of your sweet Sierra
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What a strong mama you are
thank you so much for sharing, you are so stong. i'm passing your story on to my sister who is due in june. she is still on the fence about vacinating so i hope your story will help her. 
for mama and sisters and a 
:, G-d Bless You for doing that, and give you the strength to care for your living children.
to you mama!
