Hi everyone! I just looked at the moon calendar and saw that the 10th full moon of this pregnancy is in October, so I am guessing that I belong here more than in September.
My first pregnancy (and the only one carried to term) I was finally induced (which I am regretful about) at 44 weeks after planning a homebirth. So, I am planning on a long gestation with this bean also, not knowing really how long I would have gone with Ariah had I not been induced.
Anyhow, we are excited, and a little funny feeling after loosing such a wanted baby last time, and also feeling some grief over not having an only child to focus on anymore... I know that is normal and I am simply watching the feelings ebb and flow, expecting them to shift with time.
I am trying to stay in the moment with this pregnancy... trying not to actively think about whether or not we want to hire an assistant, what the plans are, etc. I want those just to unfold. DD was born by emergency cesarean under general anesthesia for occult cord prolapse, and I don't have a prayer of a normal birth in the hospital this time, so we are staying put, but whether or not to have it assisted is up in the air. I have a lot to consider with my due date, etc. I am thinking of fudging it significantly since I expect to carry longer than the policy allows, and don't want to get risked out of homebirth for going past 42 weeks. And yet, this sets up a deceitful scenario that I am not happy about. So, we will wait to see how it all unfolds.
Right now we are not telling the general public (or our parents and friends, lol) about the baby... mostly because I don't want to answer questions about my plans for birth and listen to people's fears for any longer than I have to.
Anyway, I am sure I will need you all as I make plans and go through this journey of growth. I look forward to knowing you all and supporting you where I can.
Blessings,
My first pregnancy (and the only one carried to term) I was finally induced (which I am regretful about) at 44 weeks after planning a homebirth. So, I am planning on a long gestation with this bean also, not knowing really how long I would have gone with Ariah had I not been induced.
Anyhow, we are excited, and a little funny feeling after loosing such a wanted baby last time, and also feeling some grief over not having an only child to focus on anymore... I know that is normal and I am simply watching the feelings ebb and flow, expecting them to shift with time.
I am trying to stay in the moment with this pregnancy... trying not to actively think about whether or not we want to hire an assistant, what the plans are, etc. I want those just to unfold. DD was born by emergency cesarean under general anesthesia for occult cord prolapse, and I don't have a prayer of a normal birth in the hospital this time, so we are staying put, but whether or not to have it assisted is up in the air. I have a lot to consider with my due date, etc. I am thinking of fudging it significantly since I expect to carry longer than the policy allows, and don't want to get risked out of homebirth for going past 42 weeks. And yet, this sets up a deceitful scenario that I am not happy about. So, we will wait to see how it all unfolds.
Right now we are not telling the general public (or our parents and friends, lol) about the baby... mostly because I don't want to answer questions about my plans for birth and listen to people's fears for any longer than I have to.
Anyway, I am sure I will need you all as I make plans and go through this journey of growth. I look forward to knowing you all and supporting you where I can.
Blessings,
