Last night Dh and I had a wonderful evening to celebrate valentines day. We had a couples massage, then a movie, then dinner. When we got home the kids were in bed so we made love. When I got up there was blood on the sheets. 
I have never bled not even the smallest amount during pg except when I had my m/c. I feel a little crampy and the bleeding was a pink color. Then it got darker red. This morning I was still bleeding and it was pretty heavy so I went in and had a u/s.
I went to the u/s appt and had the same tech that did my u/s w/ Sam. She looked at my uterus and everything in that area and asked if i was sure that I had gotten a
? What does she think I am a frikin idiot!?!? Evidently the clot that I passed was my precious baby. My uterus was completely empty and had gone down to its original size. So I took my baby ( I had put it in a ziploc in a lunch bag) to the lab so that we can get some testing done. I told them that I would want it back and she looked at me like I was 
. What do you mean? I said I mean I want it back. She sais well what is it. I tell her in a very loud voice that it is my baby that I m/c this morning. She finally pulled me into a private area. I was able to get them to agree to try and get it back to me. I don't have high hopes though.
Then I went to hobby lobby and bought a pretty box to put some memories in. I think I will put the pg tests, my proof of pg from birth right, a letter to the baby, the washcloth it was wrapped in, and maybe I will think of something else.
I am so frustrated,
and really upset 
. The fact that these horrible things have to happen to us is so awful. I want this baby so bad. I want to hold, and nurse, and snuggle, a little scrunchy baby. Why is this happening to me?
I am very dissapointed that I will not be able to get to know you ladies better. I wish all of you the best of luck in the next 9 months.
Nicole
I have never bled not even the smallest amount during pg except when I had my m/c. I feel a little crampy and the bleeding was a pink color. Then it got darker red. This morning I was still bleeding and it was pretty heavy so I went in and had a u/s.I went to the u/s appt and had the same tech that did my u/s w/ Sam. She looked at my uterus and everything in that area and asked if i was sure that I had gotten a
? What does she think I am a frikin idiot!?!? Evidently the clot that I passed was my precious baby. My uterus was completely empty and had gone down to its original size. So I took my baby ( I had put it in a ziploc in a lunch bag) to the lab so that we can get some testing done. I told them that I would want it back and she looked at me like I was . What do you mean? I said I mean I want it back. She sais well what is it. I tell her in a very loud voice that it is my baby that I m/c this morning. She finally pulled me into a private area. I was able to get them to agree to try and get it back to me. I don't have high hopes though. Then I went to hobby lobby and bought a pretty box to put some memories in. I think I will put the pg tests, my proof of pg from birth right, a letter to the baby, the washcloth it was wrapped in, and maybe I will think of something else.
I am so frustrated,
and really upset . The fact that these horrible things have to happen to us is so awful. I want this baby so bad. I want to hold, and nurse, and snuggle, a little scrunchy baby. Why is this happening to me?I am very dissapointed that I will not be able to get to know you ladies better. I wish all of you the best of luck in the next 9 months.
Nicole
s:
for your loss...I am so sorry Nicole.
: that you will be comforted as you grieve your loss.
: .
So sorry for your loss!
