Q & A....beware long ass answer.....
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| This may be a weird question, but what if you are worried that what you really wish for would be a bad fit for your life in the next year? I don’t know if that makes any sense or not. Maybe I am just in a be careful what you wish for mood right now because I have been hoping desperately for the last couple months to spend more time with my kids, and my wish just came true- but in a bad way because my DS has had the flu and has been really sick for the last week. It started making me worried about putting things on my treasure map- and I really want to go into it with an open heart. What do you think? |
Well, there is a lot going on with your post that I would like to address. But really I am so glad you posted your thoughtful question because I think MANY can relate to your feelings. And for heaven's sake I CAN relate.
First of all I think your posting is VERY mercury retrograde. Meaning, I think that it might have taken the retrograde for you to voice this peasize thought that is in you, that might normally stay quiet but still is there. For that I'm grateful.
Here's my thought about
I believe that Treasure Maps can bring up so much for people and one of the things I have seen within myself, my friends and others is that there often is
deserve issues. "Shoot, do I deserve a BMW?" "Do I deserve a new house?" "I've only known struggle, I can't imagine an easier way?" That kind of thinking. That peasize thought can be very, very, very small and very deep inside but like an easter egg dye pellet...it can totally color the whole water or in this case the experience.
I will use my own life as an example... Years ago, before I learned about Treasure Maps, I went to this metaphysical class and the teacher had awesome information. and one of the things she made us do was speak out loud about something we really wanted. In my case I really needed more money in my life and said so. And then she made us get really quiet and think about what it would mean to have it and then she went around the room and asked us all to say, "what is the fear around it?" and I had an almost unwordly fear come up around my desire. A really strange, fear that did not make sense. She asked, "what is your fear about having money?" and I couldn't believe my answer, "I will be killed again."
In my case it was a fear from a past life. I hesistate to bring it up here because I don't want to de-rail this thread into a past life discussion...but that is what came up for me. But there were other people in the room who had fears that were from this life time and the antedote was the same for me..and them, Forgiveness. I had screwed up big time in a past life and I could see it and I paid a price and there was this little 'victimy' part of me that was still in the mix and I had to forgive those who harmed me and more importantly I had to forgive myself for allowing myself to be harmed. It was such a curious experience for me but I did it. I was exhausted that night and my head was spinning because I never had poked around in past lives and thought the whole thing was unworldly.
The very next day I went to work and one of my bosses pulled me aside and said, "we're giving you a raise." And they did. It was not a huge raise but it was a raise nontheless and at that point I really got the lesson. Forgiveness will bring more.
Okay, that was whole big answer... but I say it to say, that I hear you---You get more time with your child but your child gets the flu. The math lines up, I see it.
But I think if you can get below your child's health for a minute.. I think there might be a deserve issue underneath... and believe me I'm not prying for it...but take a moment and get quiet and just medidate in a cozy chair and think, "what would it mean if I had all my dreams." feel the dreams...see them.. and then ask yourself, "what are my fears around it?" and there is where you will see the pea size thought. It will be there. And the first order of business.... forgiveness and release.
Now during the mercury retrograde would be a great time for anyone to process out their doubts and fears.
Also, and this taken straight from Wayne Dyer who I think is just awesome... don't forget to be in gratitude for what you have. Gratitude always (IME) grows exponentially.
I just read my reply...god I hope it makes sense it sure is long enough!
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