I have felt the same feelings and emotions. I have had 5 mc's. I know exactly how you feel. I was tested and they couldn't find an explanation as to why. After the 4th miscarriage I was put on progesterone just in case. I have since had 2 healthy babies. Too make a long story short as soon as I got my BFP with this one I started rubbing on the cream again. If nothing else it makes it a little less nerve wracking. ANyways congrats to you and many sticky vibes coming your way!