I am losing it!

[JoshuasMommy]

I'm in the final stretch. I am so excited about meeting my baby girl but...I am a mess. I am so big and carrying so high. Nothing like my son who was low and easy going. This baby is stretching my diaphram to its max. The burning and discomfort is horrible. I am constantly out of breath. I can't bend over without pain. I can't stand on my feet or walk for any length of time without pain and discomfort. I am crabby and nasty and a horrible mommy to Joshua lately. I go from hugs and kisses to a mad woman. My patience level is non exsistant and I am yelling and threating spankings. Who the hell is this woman who has taken over my body? Even my sweet dh has noticed and is wondering whats wrong with me. I am tired all the time and it's just such a physical struggle to do anything that I am like why bother? I feel like a house I am so big.

And to top it all off I am so sad about the way I feel. When I was pg with Joshua I felt invinceable. I am woman hear me roar. I loved everything about being pg. But these last few weeks have been hell. I just want to cry all the time and I feel overwhelmed.

I am sorry to dump this on everyone but I needed to vent to sympathetic ears. Thanks, Tina~

[mamameg]

I feel ya. I find myself getting really impatient with the kids these days. I think I am stressing about having a third child in the mix and it causes me some anxiety, especially when I am feeling challenged by the day to day stuff.

I find that taking a few minutes and actually letting myself cry alone in the bathroom helps to release the feelings I am having and I'm better able to cope. While I am doing that, and I remind myself that I CAN do this, I CAN be a mom to three kids, and I know a lot of what is causing me to feel so overwhelmed is hormones and that this will pass.

I'm actually having a pretty good day today. Probably because DH is home and having the distraction of another adult to interact with helps me not indulge the feelings quite as much.

[2+twins]

Well I don't have any advice for you but I can offer a and sympathy. I'm right there with ya! I'm in lots of pain. I'm a mean mommy. I don't do much of anything except stay in bed or on the couch and read (my own books, mostly). Housework isn't getting done. Today I got more angry at dd1 then I think I ever have and gave her a timeout that lasted 3 hours (perhaps not the most appropriate for a 5 yo) and for the rest of the day I'm avoiding conversation w/her and refusing her snacks (just meals). I'm livid! So yeah, I getcha. I do actually love pregnancy and think I'm staying relatively positive about it, HOWEVER, it is sucking pretty bad right now. I'm huge too and don't even like leaving the house b/c people stare and make mean comments. I just don't want to deal anymore. Looking very forward to April.

[aweynsayl]

Sounds like you're close, if that's any consolation! We talked one day at birthing class how 6 of us were no where near ready, because we were all chipper and happy and smiling..... but the gal who was due first was READY. She was a grump, and she'd been mean to her hubby all week..... This is my first, so I dont know how true that is, but maybe it's a good sign!

Huge hugs.... when I get pissy from being so uncomfortable, I just try to remember that soon I'll MISS being pregnant.... not huge consolation, I know, but....

Hang in there!!!! And, vent anytime.

[ThreeTimesAMama]

I hear ya!

A week ago I posted a thread on this theme ("a whole new level of discomfort") and so I just wanted to update and commisserate. A few days after I posted how incredibly uncomfortable and grouchy and in pain I was, it got better. I was looking in the mirror and thinking that perhaps the baby dropped. My CNS confirmed it at my OB visit last Friday. Baby has dropped (and is head down! ) and I feel so much better. I can move and walk and thinking about something other than feeling crappy. Now there is a lot of pressure in my lower pelvis and I have to pee every 15 mins...but I feel once again like I can deal until baby is ready to come out.
Hang in there!!!!

[newbelly2006]

Add another to the unhappy and in pain club. Sitting, standing, walking, stretching: it all hurts. Trying to reduce swelling by lying on my side because I can't lie on my back....well, it's quite a sight. And like lovehomebirthin', I hate leaving the house because I feel like a freak show. People just stare. Strangers tell me how big I am, when they're not backing away as if my state is contagious. DH has been taking my older son a lot in an effort to keep my temper under control, but the smallest thing sets me off.

I honestly never thought I would make it to 36 weeks (tomorrow) and the prospect of hanging on like this for another 3-4 is just terrifying.

[JoshuasMommy]

I have stopped unpacking and cleaning the last couple days and this has helped a lot. I didn't mention in my first post that my family and I moved into our new home on Feb 4th and in addition to doing all the things you need to do to get ready for a baby I have also been unpacking a house that we just spent 3 months packing at our old place. Plus I now have stairs which is really hard going up and down. I have started telling everyone my dh included no I don't want to...I need to rest and I am doing just that. It's still rough but I am atleast mentally feeling a bit stronger. I have decided what ever I don't finish unpacking and taking care of now will be there for me when I am ready. I am only concentrating on me and the baby right now. And I have noticed the pain has gotten much better. The uncomfortable of course is still there but the pain has been greatly reduced and I can't tell you how much better that is! Also I have started using those electric scooters when I go shopping and that has helped so much. One trip to the grocery store could wipe me out for hours before. Tina~

[Tracyn]

I'm losing it too....

I have a 32 mo DS who has me at the end of my rope. He is a great kid, and I think it's a combination of my DH being in Grad School (full time student teaching PLUS evening classes a couple of nights a week), and my preggo hormones which equals too much mommy and DS without a break. Yesterday I got to go to my knitting group (where kids are welcome) by myself and it was heaven. I was so thankful for the break.

I find myself parenting in a way I never intended and at times get upset at myself about (raising voice more often than I feel I should, and occassionally hollaring, which I hate myself for afterwards), but DS is in a very testing phase, and I can't blame him. DH and I definitely are trying to inform DS about the new baby etc... BUT, it's hard to know how much he really comprehends, and surely he detects my stress (about the birth etc..) and my DH's stress (mostly from school).

For me it's really important to get out and do some things. I have a mom's group every thursday AM that we go to, we try to get to the park (I'm in Maine, so the metal slides are still pretty CHILLY!!!), go to the library, go to the local coffee shop (it's a 'treat' to have a 'hot drink'), etc.. I find that I really crave adult conversation, and finding others (like on MDC!!) that are going through similar issues.

I draw a LOT of support from these boards, and can't imagine not being able to take time each day to read about something here!

Not sure if any of this is helpful, but basically, I think there are many of us occassionally (or often?!) losing it!!

Cheers