Thanks, ladies! You are the best! Lea, I am not due as soon as you are. It looks like you are a little overdue! That must be really hard. I am due May 3, and I was planning to quit my job on April 15. I was going to go back after a few weeks because I work at home, and my DH is going to be working at home for the next few months, as well.
But, this morning, I spoke with my boss, and I get the feeling that they understand that I am feeling bad, but they are too busy with the project and deadlines to offer much sympathy. I asked to take the rest of the week off (unpaid) and my boss said today and tomorrow only.
So, I am thinking that I will just quit. I guess I am also a little bit scared because I have always made money before, and I am worried that DH will be disappointed in me, even though he says that he wants me to quit, too! He thinks that I am having too much stress for the baby.
It is all so silly, really. I shouldn't be so fragile, but I really feel awful, and the other day, I had some really bad thoughts that I am pretty ashamed about.
Like tessamami, I believe that a this has a spiritual basis. I feel it in my heart. I feel broken and worried that I won't be a good enough mama. Or that our baby will grow up to be crazy like I am!
Lea, I read your other threads about depression and fluctuating feelings. I hope that when your baby is born, everything will be great. I think that your DH will be of a lot more support after baby is born, too.
You are so sweet to offer your kind words of support to me.
Cary, I think that you and I have the same due date, don't we? Thanks for your hugs, you are a sweetie!
I think that I will have a doula come help if my mother doesn't come and stay. I am already so bothered by the very messy/dusty state of our house. And of course, by my lack of cooking in the last few days. Ugh.
Thanks ladies. I am so thankful that you are here.