Yeah, and the diaphram has a 20% failure rate according to my old doc. I've never looked it up, so that could be wrong, but I think I'd ahve a hard time placing it anyway. When we originally discussed kids, he was ok with 1-2, I wanted 2-3, so we settled on 2. My 3rd was a surprise and he's a great blessing, but I don't know if I can handle any more blessings, kwim?
I'm about to graduate with my teaching degree and trying to decide if I should get a teaching job in the fall or wait one more year. When I returned to school, it was 'perfect'. I would be ready to work when dd was in 1st grade, ds in pre-k. Then ds2 came along and I want him to have me as much as the others did, but I also want to teach- I really have enjoyed student teaching and it will be easier to get a job now, when I'm fresh with all the contacts. I'm considering subbing for a year and continuing on to a masters degree, but we'll see. If we have another, that will all be put on hold for at least another 2 years.
If it happens, it happens and we'll be fine and blessed and all that good stuff. We'll be happy. We'll be struggling financially that much longer, but it would be fine. I just don't know that I'd ever make a conscious choice to have another.
I just keep reminding myself that things happen for a reason. Sometimes not what we expect, but things work out.