Just wanted to catch up with you all, not sure if you are still following my journey, but I'd like to have some documentation for myself anyway
About a month and a half ago, I was in a really bad place. I was not the strong optimistic mama who has been posting on this thread. I was really regretting the surgery and focusing on that. Also, a family member told me that everyone in the family thought I was.....terminal, and my health took a nose dive. I heard the word in slow motion even and it felt like I was socked in the stomach....like one of those cartoons were the character gets hit in the stomach w/a canonball and the whole stomach goes backward? Well, that is what it felt like, and continued to feel like for a couple of weeks, and no matter what, I couldn't shake it. It was awful. And as I dealt w/all this negativity, my tumor grew. And as the tumor grew, I became more and more depressed. It was a viscious cycle.
Well, finally, I spent an evening going online researching cancer stuff and on one of the websites it was written (something along these lines), "second and third stage cancers can be cured easily...." and it was about natural stuff. For whatever reason, this brought me back and I have been feeling better than I have ever felt. A friend said it sounded like I went through a healing crisis, and without a doubt, I know I did.
So I'm over here now, doing great
I'm doing Kundalini yoga daily which is so helpful to my body and still taking a slew of supplements and such. I'm going to be starting the IV VIT C in a couple of weeks and I'm looking into GEIPE tx than another mama PM'd me about. BUT....I'm really feeling like these things are great and all, but, with or without them, my body is already healing--supplements or not. So I'm thinking I'll do them to give my body a boost, but that my body is going to heal anyway.
So, in terms of the tumor, it is about peach size and.....it is trying to come out of my armpit. Yes, I am birthing a tumor and I can see the head!! Actually, not the head but a portion of it is sticking out of my now opened up scar. I've been wearing a raw garlic/castor oil poultice 24/7 and I keep growing a huge ol' blister that pops in a couple of days as the tumor moves up and out. Absolutely fascinating. I'm feeling some pain, but as I concentrate on it, it is because my skin is stretching to accomodate it, and the pain is actually this stretching---a ring o' fire if you will. I'm not exactlly sure how the tumor is going to come out, but I'm confident that it will; I just need to trust.
Hope you all are well,