I think its time I share this..more for my own healing then anything else. As most of you might know we were planning a VHBA3C. What we got was the opposite. Very much so. I had a midwife appointment on MArch 9th. I had been feeling like my morning sickness had come back full swing and had been having a lot of headaches and stuff so I voiced those concerns to my MW. We took my blood pressure and it was up 148/90 , and there was protein in my urine. The Mw wasnt REALLY concerned but booked me in for an appointment the next day. She put me on bedrest and made me promise to listen to her. I did. She came the next day , blood pressure was down to under the 90's so all was well. But I had started to get this pain between my ribs that moved into my right shoulder and seeing spots in my eyes. She told me to take it easy over the weekend , stay on bedrest and she would be back on Monday (March 13th). She came , blood pressure was back up, 147/98 and there was a higher level of protein in my urine. The pain had gotten worse, (which turned out to be my liver going wonky) and my eyes were getting blurry more frequently. The babys heartrate was now up quite high AND (here comes the crazy part) baby after being engaged for over three weeks was now BREECH. How a almost 38 weeker turns after being head down and supposably engaged I have no idea, but he did it. MW actully thinks now in hindsight that he did it to protect himself, being that when he was born he had the cord wrapped pretty tightly all around himself , which is also what caused his increase in heartrate. On that monday she came again a few hours later to check again and baby still breech, his heartrate faster, my BP higher and now me getting quite ill we started to plan B which was a consult with a doc in a hospital which , being a VBAC would mean a repeat section. So my MW called around and we ended up being called at 8am on March 14th and asked to be there in 40 mins to be preped for surgery. Done and done. I dont remeber alot of the actully surgery yet. I was sort of in a daze it all went so fast. But I do remeber after. Oliver was born a good size (7lbs 9 oz) but didnt really cry...he was a good colour , and responsive...but I knew something was wrong. I got to see him right away and my husband and MW were with me the entire time. The actul birth went well. By the time we got to recovery and I got to hold babe , I knew something was wrong. Oliver was not crying at all..in fact he wasnt opening his eyes at all...had no interest in feeding and limbs were getting pretty blue. We tried for about 40 mins to get him interested in something. Well nothing worked. They ended taking him to the nursery to see what was happening. Turns out he wasnt ready enough for the big bad world. He was having alot of troubles breathing which is why he was so unresponsive. He was spending all his energy breathing. He was decked out with an IV, C-PAC , feeding tube, and a bunch of other bells and whistles that I still am not sure what they were all for. Well to make a horriable story short...one intervention led to another intervention which lead to us not being able to hold or feed our baby till the 17th...three whole days after he was born. I was told he was to tired to nurse (even though nurses would shove a pacifier in his mouth), that it was to stressful for me to hold him (though they would jab him for more and more tests , and that they had to watch him to closely for me to have him in my room with me (though I sat in the nursery for hours and no nurse bothered with him at all except to shove a soother in his mouth. He was in an incubator , rooting around for his mama but I wasnt "allowed" to touch him. It was a horriable nightmare. Finally on the 17th we put our foot down and said thats enough...we told the doctors you either find a reason to give us to keep him in this nursery or were taking him back to our room..they couldnt give us a reason..it was all percautionary. A load of BS if you ask me. I agree he needed some help at the start...a little oxygen , but everything else was on the side of caution and it was horriable. We took him out of the nursery on the 17th and was released by another doctor on the 18th...and everything has gone amazing ever since. Other then I dont remeber NB sleeping this much..lol....I want him to be awke and looking around! lol...when we finally got him nursing , he nursed like a pro and after going from 7lbs 9 oz at birth to 6lbs 10 ounces on discharge and as of today he is 7lbs 13 ounces. he is doing amazing. I still have alot of healing to do but I hope things will only get better.
alas my prince is awake.
later ladies
phoenix
alas my prince is awake.
later ladies
phoenix
Sorry they were so rough on you. That's such a difficult way to start everything out. Yay for you, though--you stuck up for your babe, and now in your care he's thriving.
You didn't have the birth you wanted, but you have your fabulous son, and you didn't do anything wrong. I hope you can be proud of yourself and begin to heal.
