I wish I felt something! I want nausea, sore boobs, something!
Too soon, I know.
One thing I do feel is kind of hard to describe. I guess the best way to describe it is that I feel like I'm not alone. Ever since Marlin and Coral went in, I have felt that they are here, right here with me. I don't feel like they are just little growing cells. I feel like they are babies and I can feel their personalities. Does that sound weird?
As much as I am hoping for just one to stay put -- and as much as it will freak out DH to hear me say it -- I feel that they both are here. I have three friends who have "a feeling" that I will have twins. One of these friends has been doing reiki for me since I started IVF. She said that one night she was sending me reiki when all of the sudden she felt this powerful energy and saw a brilliant purple light. She wouldn't tell me at the time what she felt, but she told me on Wednesday that the feeling was twins. She has twins herself.
Like I said, DH is freaking out about the prospect of twins. Emotionally and on a day-to-day basis, he thinks it would be fun. But on a finiancial level, it's driving him crazy. He really has that "man as provider" thing in overdrive at the prospect of having to keep a family of 5 going as opposed to a family of 4. We struggle a bit as it is and we seriously need a house, but he is expecting a raise and a bonus in June, so we ought to be fine. Not rolling in it, but fine. I am not the kind of person to worry about something that may or may not happen and waste all that energy. I used to be, for sure. But I am not going to stress and not enjoy this pregnancy just because we might
have one extra baby.
Hoo-wee! Sorry for all that! I guess I needed to purge that and put it in a box somewhere. Sorry the box was in y'all's laps!
BTW, I just want to state for the record that Coral and Marlin are not names that we are keeping! (Not that there is anything wrong with them....) Yes, we already have names!