I have been home for 7 years now. Dh works around 60-80 hr weeks, and I do the majority of parenting and house work, etc. I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia last year....but Im not 100% sure on that, and I really think the extreme fatigue and all over pain I have is just a physical manifestation of my body being totally worn out...and me being depressed. My dc are nearly 6, 4yo and 2yo. We ARE homeschooling, but I struggle with it often.
Dh and pretty much my whole family have this weird idea that Im superwoman...though dh is seeing that Im really struggling, and calls me a few times a day to check in with me. Everyone else just calls me to help them. My friend is getting married, and Im the matron of honor....she wants me to go on every dress trying on session she has, and whenever she asks me, I want to cry. The thought of taking my dc to a dress shop...for hours...exhausts me.
I did have a great mom friend...she was AP, our dc were the same age, we shared the same beliefs....we spent days at each other's homes, made dinner together, swapped child care..etc. But, then when we converted to the Orthodox Church from Protestantism...she pulled away more and more.
I try to find things to do for myself....tonight I did put all 3dc to bed at 7...because I was DONE. At any rate, Im utterly exhausted, completely overwhelmed, and dont know how to make it better. I get breaks here and there....but when my break is over...nothing else has changed.
Homeschooling is the biggest issue. Idealistically....I love it, I dont think anything can compare to it....BUT, can I handle it? My Priest has told dh and I many times that there is not shame in NOT homeschooling, his kids go to public school and are doing incredible.
Dh says for me to do whatever I can handle, and I only I know how much that is, but he is supportive of whatever we do.