Yesterday I finally hit bottom with a major meltdown. I suppose I should intro myself first since I haven't posted before. I'm a SAHM of 4 children (7,6,2 and 5 mos). I've been desperately trying to hold it all together and I just can't do it anymore.
I went to the doctor in January and had my thyroid tested and it came back fine. He said I was sleep deprived and to try to get more rest and to exercise. Well getting more rest is simply not an easy option. We do not have any family nearby and my attempt to rejuvenate myself by spending the winter break w/ the kids at my parents was a total bust. More stress and no rest.
The few friends I have I simply cannot admit that I've failed at managing this too. They are pretty much oblivious to the extent of it even though I have mentioned that I think I have the "baby blues". When I told them I just don't feel like being around people they have respected that and left me alone. Probably not the best thing for me but I just can't cope with the demands and needs of others.
I have none of the awful thoughts about my children or myself. My anger gets vented on my poor husband who finally has recognized that this is something I can't "snap out of". I actually have the most peace when holding or nursing my baby.
What kind of things should I be asking my doctor tomorrow? What kind of anti-depressants are safe to take while nursing? Is there any other way to get through this besides meds? I never take meds for anything.
Thanks for listening to my ramble I needed to put this somewhere. Seeing it in words before me is so hard. I feel like such a failure as a Mom, a wife and a woman of God.
I went to the doctor in January and had my thyroid tested and it came back fine. He said I was sleep deprived and to try to get more rest and to exercise. Well getting more rest is simply not an easy option. We do not have any family nearby and my attempt to rejuvenate myself by spending the winter break w/ the kids at my parents was a total bust. More stress and no rest.
The few friends I have I simply cannot admit that I've failed at managing this too. They are pretty much oblivious to the extent of it even though I have mentioned that I think I have the "baby blues". When I told them I just don't feel like being around people they have respected that and left me alone. Probably not the best thing for me but I just can't cope with the demands and needs of others.
I have none of the awful thoughts about my children or myself. My anger gets vented on my poor husband who finally has recognized that this is something I can't "snap out of". I actually have the most peace when holding or nursing my baby.
What kind of things should I be asking my doctor tomorrow? What kind of anti-depressants are safe to take while nursing? Is there any other way to get through this besides meds? I never take meds for anything.
Thanks for listening to my ramble I needed to put this somewhere. Seeing it in words before me is so hard. I feel like such a failure as a Mom, a wife and a woman of God.
