I am very afraid, I am not even sure why. I am 37weeks and 3 days.I have been in prodromal hell land for almost two weeks.Tuesday i begged my MF to check me, i was 2 cm, 60 effaced, -2 station and my cervix is soft and squishy.she said the baby is BIG (close to 7 lbs already)and if i go full term she will be 9 lbs or so.I am tall,5'8" and my dh is 6'3".she said iam made to have big babies, she actaully said, You have enough room to part a greyhound bus in there( thanks)
It seems to me the the big babes who are born with little problems are born at home, not in a freaking hospital.It looks like many homebirth moms have 8,9,10 lb babies.Now I wish I was having a home birth or even birthing at THE FARM( I would love Ina May to help me birth Violet)i live about 2-3 hours from The Farm and my midwfie was born there and delivered by Ina May Gaskin.
Iam just so afraid that Violet will be HUGE , i will labor for hours and i will give in , get an epi and end up with her stuck in my birth canal, have a CS or even somethign worse: .If I am at home or was lucky enough that Nashville still had a free standing birthing center, i could nt get an epi if I wanted one.
I keep telling her(Violet) that if she is ready to be born ,I am SO very ready to meet her.
I am worring so much I cant sleep,