~*~October '05 Mamas June thread~*~ - Page 7

[allgirls]

Anna..I think it's the right thing to do. While he may be a great father and husband, if he doesn't love you then you can't change that.

Someday you will see that this is for the best...it will take a while but someone will come along who will love you so much your head will spin with it.: and that is what you deserve and will get.

That said, it is not much help with dealing with now..good luck and to you and Caia

Happy birthday Worldshakerz! 29..you're a wee babe yet. Enjoy and hope you feel better soon

We had an open house today...4 parties through, 3 serious and 2 who are super interested and said they will look into making a firm offer. I hope we get a new offer...we are asking for a 90 day closing so our new house gets built as this one sells. So much easier.

I am sorry your SIL miscarried Rylee...it's really hard. I had an early miscarriage the month before concieving Martina. It was so sad for me. I think Martina is the same baby though...a really determined spirit...meant to come to us. She is exactly like I pictured her before she was born.

We dtd in the bed...Martina is sidecarred in the crib and sleeps right through it. Sophia sleeps in her own bed. We start her off in ours and move her out once she's asleep. This time when DH came home it had been nearly 2 weeks..though we were going to kill each other we get grouchy if we don't DTD enough...well worth the wait though

Hubby left today to work again. Miss him already.

Well must go...house is so clean..I don't know what to do with myself...there is one advantage to all this I guess. It forces me to keep the house really clean.

cheers
Carolyn

[EVC]

Happy birthday Worldshakerz!!!!!!!!!!

Here come the dancing vegetables!

: : : :

[ryleeee]

happy birthday! i won't be 29 for 7 years. it seems so far away. i'm not saying you're old or anything, i just can't imagine where we will be in 7 years.


oh anna. that is so horrible D=
i'm so sorry for you and caia.


not lots going on here, haye is fricking crazy today. we're losing our minds. he's just...screamy and won't nap, it's insane. argh. babies!

[Worldshakerz]

Ryleeee, sorry to hear of your SILs miscarriage. It's such a sad thing.

Anna, I'm so so sorry for what you are going through right now. It must be such a difficult thing to love someone, and not be loved back, especially when he is the father to your baby. Big hugs and lots of love your way. About working from home...I was perusing the WAHM stuff on MDC and saw this thing about being a tutor online. I would love to do it but you have to be enrolled in a 4 yr college or have a 4 yr degree. It's tutor.com. Whenever I get myself back to college I may be do it myself, its supposed to be flexible hours and its all done online.

Thanks for the birthday wishes all. It was pretty relaxed, a little family affair. I was kind of grumpy from not feeling well. I took one of those home UTI tests and it was negative. I think whatever it is, is getting better. But if I'm not better by tomorrow I'm going to the doc to get checked over. Today was crazy, and I'm glad its over! Too much sugar for the 3 yr old and he was a very non cooperative little dude today. He woke his sister up continually so she only got about 15 minutes of sleep until she went down for the night an hour ago. Looooooong day.

Ryleeee, I know what you mean about not being able to imagine where you'll be in 7 years. I keep saying to DH.."When we first got together (back in 2000) did you imagine us married with 2 kids 6 years later?". It sneaks up on you : It's all good though.

[operamommy]

Hi mamas! I'm posting from Virginia on vacation! We're visiting Old Williamsburg and Virginia Beach. Sam did pretty well on the drive out (10 hours, really took more like 16 with him) because of frequent stops. We split it up into 2 days, so that made it easier on all of us. Because we've been so busy he hasn't been nursing as much during the day (too stimulated to settle down) so he's been getting up about 4:30am to nurse. I forgot how spoiled I am by him usually sleeping through! But...we put him in his bed in the study to sleep (we're staying in an AWESOME house) and got spoiled by the jacuzzi and candles in our bedroom!

bailey, I'm really sorry. You're a great lady and you definately deserve someone who will love and cherish you. You have everyone's support here. I think in the long run, even though right now you see it as "taking Caia away from him" that it's better for her. She needs a good relationship/marriage model, know what I mean? Good luck on your job search.

Happy Birthday Worldshakerz!! Hope you're feeling better soon.

No AF here, but the dom I take for milk supply keeps it away. Look at my siggie - 60 percent now....yay!

ryleeee, sorry about your sil's miscarriage. That's such a sad thing. I hope she's able to carry her next pregnancy to term.

Ryvre - congrats to Ember on crawling, and yes, backwards counts. Sam is rocking like crazy on his hands and knees and every once in awhile does a little froggy hop forward and bonks his nose.

Everyone have a good day!

[ryleeee]

haye is almost crawling too, if i put him up on his hands and knees he will scooch his knees under him and then fall over, or put his hands out and fall over. he'll get it soon and then he'll be GONE. i can only imagine. :


so that "friend" of mine wrote me an email asking why we aren't talking anymore. i responded, maybe it was a little mean. want to read it and tell me what you think?

i feel like we're at completely different places in our lives and i find it hard to relate to you anymore.
up until i stopped initiating all contact and trying really hard to hang out, we hung out a lot.
we talked every day, i made plans with you, i called to find out how school was going, etc.
once i stopped trying, we stopped hanging out.

i'm just getting sick of being your back-up plan, like if something better (like going drinking) comes up you totally ditch me or ignore my calls or emails for a few days, then pretend nothing is wrong.
another thing that makes me really...mad (for lack of a better word) is how much you talk about money, like when you talk about when your parents die how much you will inherit. you know, my dad did die, and we did get a lot of money, and it still didn't bring him back. i have never told you how much i'm inheriting when my mom dies because IT DOESN'T MATTER. money is nothing. it is unimportant.

i guess one of the tipping points on the iceberg is when you were talking about getting the job at the daycare and you said: "i GUESS i can work for 9 dollars an hour, it's not like i WANT to, but i know my parents will pay for whatever i can't afford".
you know my husband makes 9 dollars an hour and 3 of us live off of it. i didn't understand how you could be so openly cruel about something like that.

i guess there's lots of reasons i'm mad and hurt at you.

we are having a HORRIBLE couple of days too. ugh. i'm ready to just trade derek and go to his job and he can stay home with haye for a few days!
he's like, refusing to nap, sometimes he has a quick 20 minute nap (which obviously isn't enough because he's crabby all day)...i've given him camilia, tylenol, ovol, teething tablets, NOTHING IS WORKING! he's just...cranky. i've resorted to letting him watch signing time videos this morning even though i'm trying to stop his tv intake because i just need a break for awhile.

[BennyPai]

Pop-in

Hi.
I'm just popping in. Between being in completely over my head with my two dd's & my ancient (7-yr-old) computer, I haven't been able to keep up online.

There are so many similarities here. Nice to have you all around, even if I've only been lurking..:

[EVC]

I think that e-mail is very well thought out and clear. She will likely be offended, but each point you make is very valid and if she thinks there's been a misunderstanding, then she should take steps to clear it up. I'm actually amazed you put up with it as long as you did

Hi BennyPai

[ryleeee]

it was a lot meaner, but i came back to it and took all the bad words out before i sent it.
oh my gosh, i can't stop laughing at haye. i'm sitting in my underwear with him on my lap and my knees are up and he keeps licking my knees. now he is staring at something with his mouth totally open and his tongue hanging out. he's really funny. seriously, just has his tongue hanging out moving his head back and forth licking my knee.

we went back to bed for a NAP!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!! and it was 2 freaking hours long! holy crap.

[allgirls]

Ryleee...good email! I think it's important that you let people know these things. It sounds to me like she has a bit of a problem with the bubbly and people can't get a handle on that if everyone avoids telling them the problem. Has she answered your email?

Hi Bennpai! HOpe you can post more often. My computer is at least that old too...never thought about it but that is pretty old for a computer isn't it?

Ok...so mommy brag time! Martina pulled up to standing! I am trying to get a picture of this today...she used Sophia's potty to hold on to and she was upright! My 12 year old said she stood at the stove yesterday as well..it's stainless steel and she can see herself in the oven door and she pulled up to standing...she was so darned proud.

operamommy~Have a great vacation!

Haye~way to go! Backwards counts! We call it the "squid"

So we are ready to do the offer for our new house! I met the neighbours..they bought the lot next to us..they are the Mennonite ministers down the street. Empty nesters...really friendly and down to earth. I hope this works. I am not Christian anymore but we can all get along right? Anyway...it relieves my mind that they are not heavy partying dudes..those days are over for me.

Ryleee..I almost forgot~sorry about the Oilers....I am so ticked..they can win this cup..they are so good and can't seem to pull it out of the hat..they should have had that game last night...grrrrrr.

OK...must get a shower...older kids off to school, babies still in bed, mdc post completed and coffee cup empty!

Cheers!

[ryleeee]

it's not haye that's going backwards...i can't remember who it is. haye is almost going...somewhere though!

she hasn't responded yet, although i'm fairly sure she would have read it by now. we are both on gmail and she hasn't been on the chat (i have left my gmail open for quite awhile to see if she was going to read it) but she could have easily signed out of chat. so, i'm not sure. my husband really can't stand her and how she treats me and is glad that we haven't hung out. i've been making a couple friends off MDC in edmonton, and got invited to a babywearers meeting! so i'm going to go when there is one closer to us and it's nice out, and i go to the library and desparately try to make friends there usually it's only kids that talk to us but...oh well! anyways, the point being that i don't really miss her. well of course i do, but i don't miss being the only one putting anything in to the relationship.

too bad about the oilers, that was a bummer. haye and i did a dance when they scored their goal, and then like, as soon as we finished dancing the canes scored. oh well. i don't think they will win this cup, which is really too bad because if we had roloson we would be able to win. i'm really proud of jussi markkanen, he played an exceptional last two games. the boys just didn't have their hearts in the last period, i didn't think.

anyways. i have to go to the library and return HAIR, i returned the case but not the video. DUH. and then i was complaining about how stupid the library is and how they screwed us and someone had it in for me () and derek decided to be brilliant and check the vcr and GUESS WHAT HE FOUND? : yeah.

[wryknowlicious]

Originally Posted by RyvreWillow

She'll play by herself on the floor for a few minutes, sometimes up to half an hour. And i don't feel guilty at all. Is that bad? I figure it's ok if i pick her up when she starts to fuss or look hungry, lol.

It's getting REALLY hard to get her to sleep, or keep her asleep, without my boob in her mouth. More often than not, we just sleep that way. My husband "caught" us doing that last night, and asked if it was normal, lol. Yeah, unfortunatly, it's perfectly normal, and perfectly crappy, because it's hard to stop! *sigh*

are you sure your DD isn;t my DD??? LOL.

Elosia is the same with sleeping and night time..actually this morning we had an unfortunate incident which i will re-tell in a post all it's own.
But keepign her asleep, getting her asleep etc etc etc. are all 100% reliant upon boob in mouth. :
I have no problem BFing my child... but it freaks me out that it;s her answer for EVERYTHING. this is the one thign I wish Eloisa was more like Isabella about. Self comfort and flexibility. I never realized how blessed I was with Isabella's simple night night time.
I'd nurse her, put her down awake and she would just smile at me and drift of to sleep.
sigh. oh well.

I'm very glad that Elosia is spending more time on the floor, exploring and chasing after me and her sister. She plays with herself or Isabella for longer and longer periods. As long as she can see me she is fine. I pick her up if she;s upset or is gettign mauled by my 2 yr old, or if she;s hungry or wants cuddle time.

Elosia is such a cuddle bug. She's the only baby I've ever held who actually hugs you. she;s a koala. She wraps her arms around you and lays her head on your shoulder and sighs. : and she'll rub your chest.

[EVC]

Elosia is such a cuddle bug. She's the only baby I've ever held who actually hugs you. she;s a koala. She wraps her arms around you and lays her head on your shoulder and sighs. and she'll rub your chest.

Awww, I've got one, too. Isn't it the sweetest?

[wryknowlicious]

ok.
so the big nasty thing that happend this mornign was......

Eloisa fell out of bed.: :
It;s like 3 feet from the bed to the floor.

We are really part-time co-sleepers.
Eloisa sleeps in the bassinet (it's on the floor.. she;s waaaaayyyy past the weight limit) from when she goes down (930/10pm) untill her 1st nurse (130/2/230.. somewhere in there). then she comes to bed with us thru until lafter her 2nd nurse (4ish) and back to the bassinet.
Some mornings she stays in bed with us untill we all get up.

Problem is - DH gets up at 5 to go to work.

Well last night DH's sleep greedy behind goes to bed at 8:30. Leaving me to clean up after dinner, put away the clean dishes, load the dirty dishes, nurse the baby like 4 times (she's such a cluster nurser before bed), make and pack his lunch for the next day, prepare and feed the baby her cereal (she has barley every night for her digestive issues - better then doctors meds IMO)..

ugh.

so by time i drag my perpetually exhausted butt to bed it's 1130.
1230 Isabella wake up screaming from a nightmare. She comes to our bed and by time we get her settled down between us it;s 130.
Cue Eloisa.
now the reason we part time co-sleep is because I CANNOT sleep when my boob is being sucked on. Sorry - doesn;t happen. i;m on my 2nd kid- trust me I've tried. I;m AWAKE the whole time.

fast forward to 5am. DH gets up and decides for some reason to leave Eloisa asleep in bed with me and Isabella.
Eloisa was between me and Isabella. Well after daddy leaves Isabella decides she wants to be next to me and squirms and wiggels her way until lshe is....... leaving Elosia on the outside edge.

I am barley aware what is going on. I remeber Isabella's hair in my face, warm toddler hand on my tummy.....

then a THUNK. scream.

ohh god. I just want ot cry again.



THATS it! several things need to change !
1. we need a bigger bed.
2. we need ot put the bed on the floor
3. both my kids need to start sleeping better. this up and down thing is making me a zombie
4. some miracle lady needs to magicaly show up at my door and clean my hosue and make me the coffee I havn't gotton around to yet.
5. DH needs to morph a kangaroo pocket onto his tummy and slipone of this munchkins in there. that way he can take one to work - spread the load. Isabella's loves crackers he could slip her some into the tummy poicket periodically thru the day.

and most importantly:
6. I need to go rent a hotel room for like 12 hours and pass out.

[Godiva]

Originally Posted by wryknowlicious

Elosia is such a cuddle bug. She's the only baby I've ever held who actually hugs you. she;s a koala. She wraps her arms around you and lays her head on your shoulder and sighs. : and she'll rub your chest.

Aww that is so precious! I wish Caia did that. She only cuddles when she's hurt and crying or if I've left her with daddy for a long time. She'll literally jump into my arms and hold on tight.

Speaking of Caia hurt and crying...: I had such a bad mommy moment the other day. I was pulling her out of the high chair and I didn't realize her leg was stuck (she came out easily). She just started bawling, crying so hard that she couldn't breathe, I had to shake her a bit to get her to take a breath. I looked at her leg and saw a HUGE bruise on it. It had bruised immeaditly so I must have really pulled hard. It's all swollen and tender today Poor baby. I feel so bad! Poor kid isn't going to survive having klutzo as a mom. (I cut myself almost every time I use a knife...I'm really bad) Oh this weekend she fell off the bed too. The dumb cat attacked her for no reason, Caia had just barely touched him, not hurting him at all. So I grabbed him away from her and he started attacking me too. He had himself wrapped around my arm biting and scratching me so I was trying to pull him off and resisting the urge to break his jaw for hurting my baby. Caia must have schooched to the end of the bed and just rolled right off. Dumb cat! I hate him, he doesn't cuddle at all and he randomly attacks me and apparently now Caia too. He doesn't attack DH though, odd. He's an indoor/outdoor cat now. We stopped trying to get him every time he ran out of the house and he sticks around and comes back in for food and night. He can stay out there for all I care now :

Caia has a tooth! It's basically just a dot on her gums, but its a tooth and it's through! I hope this means that her fussiness will go down a bit. She was in a really good mood this morning and now shes sleeping peacefully on me of course. She is such a light sleeper, even if I try to move her in a dead sleep, she'll wake up. Actually I take that back, she's not a light sleeper, she sleeps through gunfire and dogs barking, she just doesn't sleep through me trying to sneak away

Caia loves the floor now too. She plays happily for quite awhile now and I DON'T FEEL GUILTY I've held her for 7 months now, I deserve a break. I sooo love this whole crawling thing. There's nothing for her to get into, no poisions, no breakables, so I just let her roam. It's great for both of us. She's a little mountian goat though, if I sit next to her she crawls all over me faster than she can crawl on flat ground. That's a good thing for our terrain here. I'm having to learn how to navigate the mountains.

I think DH and I are going to split our land. I'll take one lot, he takes the other. We'll each build our own houses there. That way I'm not really taking Caia from him, he can see her any time he likes. And since we will still be friends I don't think it will be so bad having him for a neighbor. I'm looking forward now to building my house the way *I* want to I can teach and sell extra produce and eggs for the little bit of income I'll need and I get to be home with Caia still, living the life I want. I'll miss him though. And I'll miss the life I thought we'd have. He's a good person, I hope he finds someone he loves.

[wryknowlicious]

Originally Posted by bailey228

I think DH and I are going to split our land. I'll take one lot, he takes the other. We'll each build our own houses there. That way I'm not really taking Caia from him, he can see her any time he likes. And since we will still be friends I don't think it will be so bad having him for a neighbor. I'm looking forward now to building my house the way *I* want to I can teach and sell extra produce and eggs for the little bit of income I'll need and I get to be home with Caia still, living the life I want. I'll miss him though. And I'll miss the life I thought we'd have. He's a good person, I hope he finds someone he loves.

that sounds awesome! I really hope it works out. I hate to see anyone sad, and you DH sounds like such a good dad.... this would be a great idea.

[Worldshakerz]

Wry and EVC Piper is the same - she's a cuddlebug too - so sweet. I like the koala description. OH, and I bumped her poor head on the corner of the wall the other day, and had to ice it.

I am still not feeling all that grand. Okay, let's see. This actually all started back when DH and I DTD a little over two weeks ago. So I figured at least part of this has been a back out of whack from "that". Well, I went to the chiro yesterday and my sacrum was out of place. I got it adjusted, and I put ice on my back a bit yesterday. I still have other stuff going on and back still doesn't feel all that great. Since this all seems to have progressed since DTD - freestyler your idea maybe its a bacterial infection certainly could be true, I tested myself for UTI and that was negative. I am peeing frequently though, so now I'm also thinking a lot about the possibility of pregnancy. With Piper I ovulated 5 days after DTD and got pregnant....so if I did ovulate a good amount of days after, I could be pregnant and still be kind of early to test as it would be about 10 or 11 days past ovulation right now. I did actually test 2 days ago and it was negative...but I've been thinking about how with Piper I got negative test on 10, 11, 12 DPO then got positive on day 13 (hehe, I'm an HPT freak I guess). So when I go to the doc tomorrow I think I am going to ask for a pregnancy test while I'm there while getting the other things checked out.

Piper has started saying "bababa", and this one is funny "gung". Not sure what she's trying to say, its adorable though.

I have been feeling so tired and yucky in general, that we've been having bagels and coffee from Dunkin Donuts for breakfast like every morning for almost a week....this is so odd for us, especially me since I generaly don't eat bread and we buy organic or grassfed everything. Then during the day I put together a snack for Jakob but I haven't felt hungry during the day at all. And I'm making DH cook dinner at night (last night was the first time I cooked an actual dinner in the past 5 days). And the 3 yr old has been watching entirely way too much television. I just feel so crappy!

Piper has gone from 1 tooth to 3 going on 4 this week. She is crawling everywhere.

I think I will go join Jakob on the couch and watch cartoons with him, Piper is napping right now.

[EVC]

Eloisa fell out of bed.
It;s like 3 feet from the bed to the floor.

DD's done it THREE TIMES already and that was before she started to crawl. Now I can't leave her alone in bed at all. Something's got change here, too....

I think DH and I are going to split our land. I'll take one lot, he takes the other. We'll each build our own houses there. That way I'm not really taking Caia from him, he can see her any time he likes. And since we will still be friends I don't think it will be so bad having him for a neighbor. I'm looking forward now to building my house the way *I* want to

All things considered, that sounds like the optimal solution

[EVC]

so now I'm also thinking a lot about the possibility of pregnancy.

Wow! And, you know, I was wondering which one of us would be the first to get pregnant again....Hmmmm.....

[wryknowlicious]

EVC- that pic of your baby girl is absolutly precious!! :