I just feel like theres no light at the end of the tunnel but also don't feel that if I were to stop, I'd feel as if I tried everything within my power in the end.
Again, ANY advice, stories, resources, etc you all have to offer is greatly appreciated. I'm checking the thread religiously just because its been so helpful.
THANK YOU all SO much!
You're doing just GREAT under really, really tough circumstances. I've BTDT.
It sounds like you're getting some better real-world advice, now, although I'm afraid I have no experience with Reglan. My gut reaction would be to take the chance while you're waiting for the dom. You could ask mamas here about their experiences with it but it seems like a good sign that you have no history of depression.
I'm glad you're getting hooked up with an SNS. Please don't be discouraged at the outset – there is a learning curve. I know money is tight but the Lact-Aid system – while pricey – is much superior for long-term supplementation.
I have used a SNS while travelling and yes, it's a PIA but it's doable. You can buy ready-to-serve bottles of formula and wash the SNS anywhere if you bring supplies.
On the pump, I know LCs swear by hospital-grade pumps but I rented one and didn't find it that much better than my Pump In Style. Do you have well-fitted flanges? That can make a big difference.
My son also had a tongue tie and had it "clipped" – essentially snipped with a pair of surgical scissors by our family doc. He cried less than during a diaper change and nursed right afterward.
I so hope you'll be able to exclusively breast feed but if you continue to need to supplement it's not the end of the world. Really. My son needed 8 oz of formula a day in the Lact-Aid to grow well but he got all his nutrition at the breast, every drop of breast milk I could manage and is still nursing avidly at 15 months. I'm still taking dom but stopped pumping after every feed at six months without losing supply.
You CAN do it. Please call on me any time for support.