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post #1561 of 1785
Well, sadly, I believe my pumping has come to an end. Despite my efforts to continue after a low point (see pp in this thread) a month or 2 ago, my supply kept dropping and dropping. Yesterday I couldn't even squeeze out a 1/2 oz. and oh did it hurt to do even that. I am very sad. I made it almost 11 months. I so desperately wish I never slowed down and had the will to keep going into toddlerhood. My frozen supply is gone and I will dust off my pump and clean everything tonight for storage. I am thankful to have had this tribe. I may have stopped a lot sooner than I did. So thank you EPers. I hope that when I have another baby, I can BF, and if I can't, I hope I have the will and supply to go longer than 11 months.
I guess this post is my way of closure.... :
post #1562 of 1785
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Originally Posted by oregonmama79 View Post
Well, sadly, I believe my pumping has come to an end. Despite my efforts to continue after a low point (see pp in this thread) a month or 2 ago, my supply kept dropping and dropping. Yesterday I couldn't even squeeze out a 1/2 oz. and oh did it hurt to do even that. I am very sad. I made it almost 11 months. I so desperately wish I never slowed down and had the will to keep going into toddlerhood. My frozen supply is gone and I will dust off my pump and clean everything tonight for storage. I am thankful to have had this tribe. I may have stopped a lot sooner than I did. So thank you EPers. I hope that when I have another baby, I can BF, and if I can't, I hope I have the will and supply to go longer than 11 months.
I guess this post is my way of closure.... :
Don't be so hard on yourself. 11 months is nothing to sneeze at. It is not your fault your supply dropped. 11 months of mama milk is something to celebrate! Go buy yourself a very special gift and have a dinner out to celebrate the 11 months of mama milk.
post #1563 of 1785
Congratulations, Liz, on getting as far as you did! Gooey's right, 11 months is something to celebrate, you did a great job! For how I'm feeling about the pump right now, I would be ecstatic to make 11 months. Lately I've been feeling like just giving up - DS is now five months old going on six and I wonder how the heck I'm going to go another six. Blech. I think I'd be less ambivalent if I was actually giving a full supply, but I look at my three measly bottles a day and wonder what I'm killing myself for. Then I think, well, because he isn't getting a full supply, it's even MORE important that I keep going and I do it another day...

Sorry, a bit of a rant there. If I haven't said it before, thanks to all here for the space to rant and commiserate!
post #1564 of 1785
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Originally Posted by oregonmama79 View Post
Well, sadly, I believe my pumping has come to an end. Despite my efforts to continue after a low point (see pp in this thread) a month or 2 ago, my supply kept dropping and dropping. Yesterday I couldn't even squeeze out a 1/2 oz. and oh did it hurt to do even that. I am very sad. I made it almost 11 months. I so desperately wish I never slowed down and had the will to keep going into toddlerhood. My frozen supply is gone and I will dust off my pump and clean everything tonight for storage. I am thankful to have had this tribe. I may have stopped a lot sooner than I did. So thank you EPers. I hope that when I have another baby, I can BF, and if I can't, I hope I have the will and supply to go longer than 11 months.
I guess this post is my way of closure.... :
11 months is better than 90% of the country. And you had to do it with tons of challenges. 11 months is great! Don't be so hard on yourself!
post #1565 of 1785
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Originally Posted by GISDiva View Post
For how I'm feeling about the pump right now, I would be ecstatic to make 11 months. Lately I've been feeling like just giving up - DS is now five months old going on six and I wonder how the heck I'm going to go another
I've been feeling the same way lately, but every time I watch her suck down milk, it makes me happy, so I keep doing it. I say I'll pump for a year, but it will hopefully be more like 18 months (as long as I have supply). However, the thought of doing it for that long makes me want to die/cry, so I have set a goal for a year. We'll see what happens after that.
post #1566 of 1785
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Originally Posted by ScoobySnacks View Post
I've been feeling the same way lately, but every time I watch her suck down milk, it makes me happy, so I keep doing it. I say I'll pump for a year, but it will hopefully be more like 18 months (as long as I have supply). However, the thought of doing it for that long makes me want to die/cry, so I have set a goal for a year. We'll see what happens after that.

Little goals. Seriously. I started at 3 mos. I'm now at 27mos (for my goal...which is in 11 days). Honestly, I take it day by day.

18 mos was unthinkable when I started. I thought six months would be a real trial. It actually does get easier when you get to pump less. I only pump twice a day now - I don't get that much, but, I feel its enough for the immuno-benefits, so, I do it. It doesn't interfere with my day at all. But, I'll tell you, for some reason, that 12-18 months was a real hurdle for me.
post #1567 of 1785
I think the first 12 months was awful. After that, I felt I could breathe. If I missed a session, oh well. But the kid still wouldn't eat, so I pumped on.

In one month and 3 days I will hit 3 years. She is eating fairly well now. I think I am going to work on HUTH when she hits 3 years old. Not totally HUTH, but pump maybe morning and before bed and that is it. What I get, I get. Thats what she will have plus WCM I guess. I want her to have some mama milk through cold and flu season, and I want to completely be done pumping by the end of flu season. So I am thinking I will pump just twice a day until April or so after next month. I think 3 years is long enough. I know there will be tears from her, but I really think it is time. I have a love hate relationship with this pump. I need to say good bye and move on eventually. I think I will be able to stop greiving over the loss of a normal bfing relationship once I HUTH.
post #1568 of 1785
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Originally Posted by oregonmama79 View Post
Well, sadly, I believe my pumping has come to an end. Despite my efforts to continue after a low point (see pp in this thread) a month or 2 ago, my supply kept dropping and dropping. Yesterday I couldn't even squeeze out a 1/2 oz. and oh did it hurt to do even that. I am very sad. I made it almost 11 months. I so desperately wish I never slowed down and had the will to keep going into toddlerhood. My frozen supply is gone and I will dust off my pump and clean everything tonight for storage. I am thankful to have had this tribe. I may have stopped a lot sooner than I did. So thank you EPers. I hope that when I have another baby, I can BF, and if I can't, I hope I have the will and supply to go longer than 11 months.
I guess this post is my way of closure.... :
You did such an awesome job!! EPing so so much harder than nursing, you have to regulate everything instead of baby doing it. You're a wonderful mother for even attempting to EP, much less making it as long as you have. Be proud of what you've accomplished, you've given your baby an amazing gift. :

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Originally Posted by GISDiva View Post
Congratulations, Liz, on getting as far as you did! Gooey's right, 11 months is something to celebrate, you did a great job! For how I'm feeling about the pump right now, I would be ecstatic to make 11 months. Lately I've been feeling like just giving up - DS is now five months old going on six and I wonder how the heck I'm going to go another six. Blech. I think I'd be less ambivalent if I was actually giving a full supply, but I look at my three measly bottles a day and wonder what I'm killing myself for. Then I think, well, because he isn't getting a full supply, it's even MORE important that I keep going and I do it another day...

Sorry, a bit of a rant there. If I haven't said it before, thanks to all here for the space to rant and commiserate!
I found that the 6-9 month mark was the hardest for me, that was when I had the hardest time keeping myself motivated. Hang in there


Well ladies, I'm done as well. I made it 13 months EPing for DD and I just can't do it anymore. I've switched her over to whole milk and she's on solids all day and loving it. She's even sleeping better since I stopped pumping. I'm proud of myself for making it so long but I need to stop for my own mental and physical health. I've lost a lot of weight over the past year due to lack of sleep and stress. I wish I could have made it longer but I have to be happy with what I have done.

Lots of hugs to you all, and good luck
post #1569 of 1785
[/QUOTE]Well ladies, I'm done as well. I made it 13 months EPing for DD and I just can't do it anymore. I've switched her over to whole milk and she's on solids all day and loving it. She's even sleeping better since I stopped pumping. I'm proud of myself for making it so long but I need to stop for my own mental and physical health. I've lost a lot of weight over the past year due to lack of sleep and stress. I wish I could have made it longer but I have to be happy with what I have done.

Lots of hugs to you all, and good luck [/QUOTE]


Congrats on 13 months!!!! :

Thanks for all your kind words everyone!
post #1570 of 1785
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Originally Posted by katheek77 View Post
Little goals. Seriously. I started at 3 mos. I'm now at 27mos (for my goal...which is in 11 days). Honestly, I take it day by day.

18 mos was unthinkable when I started. I thought six months would be a real trial. It actually does get easier when you get to pump less. I only pump twice a day now - I don't get that much, but, I feel its enough for the immuno-benefits, so, I do it. It doesn't interfere with my day at all. But, I'll tell you, for some reason, that 12-18 months was a real hurdle for me.
How much are you getting when you pump? I'm frustrated because I pump 8-10 times a day, which means less sleep and less ability for social situations, and I'm still low supply. And my supply has dipped again recently... and yes, I've tried/taken everything there is. I just hope I don't lose it altogether.
post #1571 of 1785
Well done Daisy!!!

Thanks for the encouragement, it's good to know that others have felt this way and kept going anyway.
post #1572 of 1785

Joining this tribe

Hi ladies,
I've lurked since my baby was born 7/9. She was in the NICU for 10 days so our BF'ing relationship got off to a rocky start. I'm back to work full time now so I just EP. Its easier for me to EP for several reasons (large breasts, nipple shield dependent, fussy nurser). Please do not flame me for choosing to EP. I EP'd for my first baby as well but I felt forced into it because he would not latch and I grieved over that for a very long time so I know what that feels like. This time, I guess because its my second time around, I am coping alot better with the situation at hand and I'm not beating myself up over it. I wish things were different and maybe they will be as my preemie gets bigger but as for now I'm an EPer. Anyhow, I came here looking for pumping tips and tricks. I have all of these various speeds and suction on my PIS and I'm wondering how to best use them. Does it speed up the session to put the pump on the fastest speed? What's your tried and true routine? I've played around some but would like to hear from others about what works for them. Thanks!
post #1573 of 1785
You won't get flamed here! I think it's great that you're EP'ing a second time around, I don't know if I could do it again.

Really I think the pump speed thing is more a trial and error thing. They say to do it faster and shallower at first to get a let down and then do a stronger slower pump after that - repeat as necessary, I get three separate let-downs in a half an hour. Doing it that way is supposed to simulate your baby nursing. However, since DS wasn't a great nurser, my boobs don't know the difference. So sometimes I get more milk keeping it on the faster speed throughout the whole session and sometimes the fast then slow works. It's really whatever your body seems to respond to best, ya' know? Good luck to you and ...
post #1574 of 1785
Thanks GISDiva! I just know alot if not all of the mamas here would do anything to be able to nurse their LOs and that was me last time (and this time before she was born). I nursed her almost exclusively while on maternity leave but I didn't find it to be the lovey dovey bonding experience that I thought I was missing out on last time. I just found it to be very time consuming and uncomfortable due to my top heaviness. I also found that because I had to have some light during the night to see what I was doing with the nipple shield, it woke my DD up even more and then she'd be up for the next three hours. Definitely not what I had imagined!
post #1575 of 1785
Hi everyone,

I'm also joining the tribe. My DD was born on August 10th, and for whatever reason, won't drink enough at the breast to thrive (like 1/2 an ounce in a hour of nursing). At this point, I'm EPing and supplementing with formula, and wondered if there are others parents here who've done that. I only get about an ounce each time I pump, so even pumping 6 to 8 times a day only yields a third or fourth of what she needs. I started taking domperidone last week, but have yet to see any increase.

Anyway, just saying hi, reading for support, and wondering, particularly for those of you who have to supplement as well, how you find the strength to keep going. I'm so glad to be able to give her at least some breastmilk, but some days I get really depressed about spending an hour and a half on my pump that I could have been spending with her.

Also, I've been using a rented hospital grade pump, but need to buy a portable one for work and travel. Suggestions? I'd prefer to buy an Ameda, since I already have all the accessories. Is a Medela PIS any better?

Thanks everyone!
post #1576 of 1785
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Originally Posted by AngelaM View Post
Also, I've been using a rented hospital grade pump, but need to buy a portable one for work and travel. Suggestions? I'd prefer to buy an Ameda, since I already have all the accessories. Is a Medela PIS any better?
Welcome! I do not know the difference between Ameda and Medela but I purchased an Avent Isis IQ when I was pregnant bc it had great reviews but then found the Medela pumps to be more comfortable when I used them at the hospital. I also found that the Medela pumps helped my supply and because they are so popular I was able to get replacement parts at BRU, Target and my hospital. When you exclusively pump, you'll find that its really important to be able to pick up parts locally at a moment's notice. I picked up an old PIS at a consignment sale that had a broken part where the tubes plug in but I didn't realize it until I was at work and ready to pump. I was pleasantly surprised to find that my hospital had the replacement part in stock for only $5 so problem solved. I don't know what I would have done if they didn't have the part.
post #1577 of 1785
Hi AngelaM! I am a low-supply EP-er as well, so I know exactly what you're going through, as in, I'm pumping like crazy and I still have to give formula?!? Yeah, sucks. But I continue on - I'm on domperidone, oatmeal, one dark beer a day, fenugreek, goats rue - and I now get 3-4 ounces a pump, which I do six times a day for a half an hour each. Why the half hour? My finicky boobs let down again at about the 25 minute mark, so I figure I'll take what I can get. LO hasn't been sick at all yet, even with sending him to day care, so I tell myself that he's healthy because of the amount of BM I do get him. (My mother says it's because nothing is going around right now - thanks mom.)

Anyhoo - hang in there. I still waver back and forth on how long I will continue to do this. The 3 AM pump isn't even the hardest, it's the 5:30 PM pump after we all get home and all I want to do is hug my LO. So keep on going, but only as long as you stay sane. LO needs a happy mamma too, ya' know? More milk vibes to you...
post #1578 of 1785

THANK YOU for all your support

I am down to twice a day, once for 15 mins, once for 10 minutes. I am weaning, slowly but surely. I'm down to less than 2oz/day. I am HUTH.

It has been 27 months, and I have pumped every. single. day. Multiple times per day. I woke up in the middle of the night, even when Katie was sleeeping through to pump. I had nipples so painful I sometimes cried when I first put the horns on each session. I took everything under the sun to increase supply. I love to say I smelled like the IHOP on Sunday mornings for months. I altered my social life, racing home every two hours to pump, trying to figure out if I had enough time to go to both the grocery store AND the library without having to go home to pump. I carried a pump with me on vacation, I stored pumped milk in hotel sinks filled with ice. Bags of "emergency" milk fell out of our freezer. I sobbed hysterically on the phone to my best friend over "starving" my daughter the first few days when I didn't realize I literally did not have enough milk (tubular breasts, for those who don't know). I tried for months to "woo" my daughter back to my breast (she's no dummy - much easier to take Mama-milk from the bottle, and I didn't know about SNSs and all that jazz back then). I cried over spilled milk, literally.

And, I found untold support. I found it in the likeliest places - from MDC - especially from you guys, who understand that sometimes, it's NOT the easiest thing in the world to breastfeed and that NOT everyone can do it completely problem-free. From my best friend -who easily breastfed her three kids, and COMPLETELY supported me, even when I had to supp. with formula. She even dealt with my hysterical phone call at seven in the morning on a Saturday with compassion. I found it from my mother, who breastfed me for a week or so, and quit, but always understood when I visited that I'd have to "get back home to pump". I found it from my grandmother, whose response to my tentative admission that we weren't getting Katie the MMR vax was, "Well, you're still breastfeeding, right? She'll be fine."

I found it in the unlikeliest places, too. From my daughter's optometrist (who, God love him, supports non-vax and extended breastfeeding). From my employers - who told me to take whatever time I needed to pump, even AFTER Katie was a year old. One memorable night, I found support for pumping for my nearly 2 year old from my husband's male, childless, unmarried Army buddies (didn't see that one coming).

And most of all, from my husband and my Katie-bird. My *husband* has had to deal with the pumping for these 27 months as well. The rushing to get home. The planning vacations and driving and all that around when I'd need to pump. Taking the baby while I pumped. Understanding that if we went to a party, I'd need to be home at a certain time. Understanding that he'd have to move some bottles of milk out of the sink to shave at the military ball. Washing pump parts, and carefully handling the milk. The "Don't touch me there! I just pumped half an hour ago - they hurt!" And my Katie, who is absolutely the best support in the world for me doing this. She is healthy, intelligent, funny, and probably more self-sufficient than most 27month olds, just due to the fact that "Mama has to pump now" is a stock phrase in the house. Heck, she can assemble and disassemble a pump on her own, probably blindfolded if necessary. She is beautiful, in every sense, and I like to think that my milk helped to make her that way.

It has been a long, hard 27 months. There are times when I absolutely resented it. I absolutely wanted to quit. If you had told me two years ago, I'd still have this pump on my table, I would have laughed hysterically. But, it's time. I think it's so hard for me to quit, because for 27mos, I've known that this is a "noble" thing to do for my daughter, and I could take pride in it. I knew my milk helped to keep her healthy, and strong, and helped her grow. And, now, I won't have that "sure-fire" good stuff. I'll need to find other ways to help keep her healthy and strong, and that's kind of scary. I know it isn't that logical, but, in many ways, I think pumping has become a bit of a crutch for me, and *I* need to find new ways to grow, if that makes sense. But I will always be able to say with pride that, despite obstacles, I breastfed my daughter for over 27 months. : : :
post #1579 of 1785
Kathee, you did an amazing thing! 27 months, wow! It is quite a challenge to deal with pumping, especially EPing. Your little one is so lucky to have you. My time is coming to HUTH, as well. I am finding it is time to move on soon, but am having difficulty. I am so afraid she is going to get sick, etc. I know it is time, though. I cant be pumping for her and sending it to school with her, ya know?
post #1580 of 1785
Kathee, amazing job!!! ::::

You will find other ways to "cope" with the lack of BM. I totally understand that new stress of having to think about how to deal with a cold when their is no longer BM to hold your little one through the worst of it. But you will do it

Congrats on the 27mths and enjoy your new life without the pump!:
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