Thanks everyone!
arrived yesterday 
That's alright, onto the next cycle! Each time I don't get pg, I tell myself, Kayla gets to be one month older when this baby arrives and that is good for her. She also is still breastfeeding and I know some kids wean when you're pg. I know my breasts were so sore throughout my whole 1st pg that if they are that sore this time, I'll have to wean her. I want to let her nurse at least until she is 2.
Like I said before, its all in God's perfect timing.
arrived yesterday 
That's alright, onto the next cycle! Each time I don't get pg, I tell myself, Kayla gets to be one month older when this baby arrives and that is good for her. She also is still breastfeeding and I know some kids wean when you're pg. I know my breasts were so sore throughout my whole 1st pg that if they are that sore this time, I'll have to wean her. I want to let her nurse at least until she is 2.
Like I said before, its all in God's perfect timing.







. btw, you still can own your birth even if you have a hospital birth- stay ballsy (ovarian?
) & conscious & make your wishes KNOWN (not a guarantee, but it makes a difference.)
: but the three delightful days of NON-back labor I got to have first this time, I really enjoyed all that rockin' & moanin'! now i'd be happy to pop out another one w/out being afraid of birth again; it's that hyperemesis during pregnancy and the toughness of already having two in diapers that puts me off!)