c-section and vbac!
first off, it's completely normal to be scared of a vbac. it's like a brand new pregnancy but with the knowledge of what "could" happen. i know i was scared...but once labor started, i didn't really think of anything other than the babe. i wasn't scared of rupture, i wasn't scared of a c/s (although i was told that if i didn't progress, according to hospital policy, i would need one, and even that didn't break my concentration...just gave me a jumpstart, lol!).
my reason for the first was the Matthew actually kicked a hole in my bag of waters as he decided to turn frank breech on me
: that's not something that happens often, but the doc didn't want to try to turn him. her reason: i'd lost too much water, which is b. s. becuase your body keeps making the amniotic fluid, but i was unaware.
anyhow, we had a vbac with midwives in a hospital. what they look for is the type of incision and what the reason was for the c/s. obviously, my reason wasn't going to affect the vbac (ie. wasn't likely to happen again) so it was ok.
keep in mind that when some docs put down that the baby was too big, this also can be bull. my first was 7' 14" at 2 weeks early, my second was 8' 10'. if we had been at the first hospital (where i had the c/s) i wouldn've had another c/s, i know it. at that hospital, a vbac has to stay on her back with an internal fetal monitor. the only way that Gabriel fit through my pelvis was squatting on a birth stool. when i was on my back pushing he wouldn't budge, and actually started going back up inside.
i figured i'd add that because alot of moms say that the baby was too big, but then go on to say that they were pushing on their back for 1, 2, more hours, but that the doc was also telling them to push. some mommas take a break at 10cm to get strentgh back before getting the urge to push, so for these mommas, that was a disaster from the start. if the momma is tired, there's no way that she'll be able to push the babe out.
anyhow, i'm also a doula, and very well-read about vbacs for obvious personal reasons, lol. so give a pm if you need to!