Why can't I just act like a normal person... VENT

[geogirl]

AAAARRRGGHHHHH!!! I can be having a fine day and then jsut feel it slipping through my fingers. I feel myself getting more and more overwhelmed. I seem to react to this with anger so today I find myself yelling in a very angry awful way at my 3 year old because he won't leave me and the baby alone or be quiet while I put the baby down. Of course all this causes the baby to be crying and distresed an in my overwhelmed out of control state I hear myself telling him to be quiet already.... Then I phone my dh becase I don't know what to do and am bawling hestaricaly on the phone and he says I'm coming home... this scares me and I beg him (still bawling) not too because I worry about his job...
He is still coming, Mackenzie is watching a video, baby is sleeping and I feel like my insides are on the outside. I jsut want this to stop. I'm done.

[mamaduck]

Geogirl -- let your dh come home, and don't waste precious emotional energy worrying about his job. You and your kids are much more important. Let him come home and take care of you. It is fine -- it really is.

Go very easy on yourself, okay? A lot of use have been there, and everything does work out fine eventually. You are allowed to have some bad days.

You will have better days -- it gets easier. I promise.

[Lucky Charm]

geo...i have been overwhelmed before. let your husband come home.

i cant do much far away, except let you know that i'm thinking of you. we're here for you.

[Jish]

Geomom, take care of youself. Let your husband do his share when you need it.

[mama2girls]

Geomom, I have done the exact same thing. Down to the guilty feeling. Try to let it go. He's coming home because he loves the three of you and wants to help out in any way he can. When he does come home, try to have some time to yourself for a few minutes. Alone time is so important.

[QueeTheBean]

Geogirl--I have also had the exact same thing happen. I can totally relate. I feel bad for my kids--esp. the 4-1/2 year old because he's just acting like a normal kid, but I just can't bear it sometimes--he never stops talking. Some days, I can take it, and other days, it makes me crazy! Poor kid probably wonders from one day to the next . . .


Anyway, I hope you are feeling a little better. Try to remember that your husband only wants to help, and you know you'd do the same for him. Try not to feel guilty. Easier said than done, I know. You are not alone. Take care of yourself!