Ah, MPJJJ... Let me start by saying that it truly is perfect that the posts we feel drawn to reply to allow us to see something about ourselves in the asking/responding. (MsChatsALot was onto something there, for sure!)
|My problem is that I am indecisive about the most important things in my life. I change my mind constantly about the biggest things.
I do this - change my mind constantly. I want to be everything, to do everything, to go everywhere! But you know what? I don't see it as a problem at all! Because I can do/be/go as much as I want! I realized recently that sometimes the act of 'trying something on' in my mind has all the excitement I need, and I don't have to ever move past that phase of the game. It's brilliant! I can day dream about being a politician, really play it out and feel it, think of all the good I'd do with it, and then let it go. I milk the fun out of the idea and release it.
The reason I want to do everything is because I see the good in everything, the joy in all of it! (Now how could that be a problem?!) But I know that playing it all out for a little while allows me to see the contrast, and then I can decide if the 'other stuff' that comes with the roll is what I'd really want. I'm not talking about beating something up to pull the bad out of it. I'm talking about letting it unfold in my mind until I go "oh yeah, I don't think I'd choose that part..." and realizing that the 'not for me' stuff outweighs the stuff I love. Then onto the next thing! (Sound familiar?
|I am driving my husband crazy, my best friend has mentioned this, and my mother told me just today that she cannot keep up with me. And I am making myself miserable.
Are you miserable because you don't enjoy your process, or because you don't enjoy the looks the others are giving you? (Probably both - it's all connected, right?) For the first part, see above. You're allowed to play with this! You don't have to do it the way everyone else does it! As for the second part, well... don't tell them. Don't share your day dreams as soon as they pop into your head. Sit with it a couple days. Play with it alone, or find someone that knows and appreciates your game. You can be selective with what you verbalize. Tell them all you're working on discovering your path, and then wait until if feels really good to share
before you share it. Your gut will tell you when the sharing is a good idea. Listen to your own instincts.
Ok, all of the above is really about me giving advice to myself.
Um, thanks for asking.
I do hope some of it hits home with you.
Now, if you are really unsure about what you want, just ask "what do I want?" and wait for the nudge from the universe. Something will come up that will totally knock your socks off. Happened to me this week! (I did a post in my blog about this - see the link in my sig.)
|I have a lifelong ambition to become a wildlife educater, but I don't seem to have a way to get there. The thought of going iinto classes and teaching children about animals brings me great joy... but I am quickly filled with disapointment when I realize that in my area this is a dead end dream, and I cannot seem to find a way to get there.
You are putting limitations on yourself that don't need to be there. You are focusing so much on the how that you're cutting yourself off from your desires. If this is truly what you want, then put your focus on the end result
, and not on what you think it will take to get you there.
Did you watch Liz/darwinphish's story unfold? Did you see how she got her dream of teaching on that glorious organic farm? I'm sure she could never have imagined all the things that lined up to make that a reality for her. She just put out her intention and the universe presented her with opportunities to make it real. (Do a search for her posts on this thread and you'll see the unfolding - so brilliant and beautiful!)
Ah, I could go on! But I have a colouring date I must attend.