Hugs, mamas. I've been feeling like crap too, and cry several times a day because I feel like such a failure as a mom and a partner. I haven't cooked in over a week because just the smell or even the idea of the refrigerator makes me vomit. I am exhausted, depressed, irritable, so sick, etc. I fall apart over the smallest things, and find myself lecturing my sweet 2 year old while he gives me worried looks. Oh, and I can hardly sleep at night, and even though I need a nap, I rarely actually sleep when I lie down. Today, my son watched me while I simultaneously had diarrea and puked into the trash can. His newest phrase is "mama throw up". The last pregnancy was also this hard, but I didn't have a 2 year old to look after. One secret I've found is that I'm much less likely to vomit up a meal made by someone else! So DH is cooking again, thank heavens.
Last night I took 2 benedryl because I remember them being safe for occasional use, and it helped with the sleep, but DS woke up 3 times that night (he usually sleeps through), so it didn't help all that much, though I was able to go back to sleep after comforting him. The only thing I've consistantly noticed is that the days that I can keep my B6 supplements down, I feel much better in the evening and the next day. My mom who is an ob/gyn nurse practitioner said to take 3 50 mg B6 tablets each day, but not too late in the day or they interfere with sleep. So I take one with breakfast and 2 with lunch, and hope I can keep them down. The days that I vomit them back up, I'm guaranteed a bad day the next day, but yesterday I kept them all down, and have felt quite a bit better today (why I'm typing now rather than lying comatose on the sofa). My midwife also took me off of my prenatals and had me just take a folic acid supplement which is much easier to keep down.
Finally, the days that I make plans with other, caring moms are so much better. Even if I am sick, at least I'm not sick, alone at home with my DS. I'm trying to make a goal of at least one outing each day to get me through. I also am ridding myself of any guilt of putting a video on for our 2 year old. Another mom reminded me that he will survive and it won't ruin him, though I may go crazy watching Dora 3 times a day ( his current favorite).
Oh that is so hard! I am not as bad off as you, and I feel very sorry for myself! Just constant nausea and crippling fatigue. I am nine weeks today. I am looking forward to better days.
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